Sigh and Yawn

A heart broken again

2012-02-15T06:57:00.001+08:00

Although he has been in my mind for the past days, I dare not to communicate with him. He will just civilizely replies to me as if we never had a past. That kind of reply terribly hurts me. Yesterday I gave in to the temptation by sending him a you tube link with a video dedicated to him. The song was ' a thousand years'. I don'tt expect him to reply but i receive a txt message before the day ends. It was as if it was meant for someone not for me. I want to remove that thought by calling him. What I feared happened. He rejected me again by telling me je is tired from teaching. When I started to cry he explained himself. We tallled for 25 minutes until I put the phone down. In between is me threatening to hurt him if he hurts me again - which I am already is during the conversation. I end up crying myself to sleep again. I just want this man to love me again. But instead, so muc afraid of me, he doesn't return the same love back.

Coping

2012-02-13T07:04:00.001+08:00

Throughout the week, I would see mama cry a lot of times. She misses mommy so much. I would hug her and comfort her and tell her that mommy wants her to move on and be happy. Somehow, she will be comforted by those words. And yet, being outside the comfort of my family, literally away from them...all alone in SG is quite hard. Gloom and the sense of lost triies its grip on me. I didn't realize it would be this hard.

Within the past week, I have been overwhelmed by numerous changes. I will miss mommy and will not see her anymore when I go back to the Philippines on December. The used to be the love of my life who confesses friendship even we're not involved anymore is occupied with paying his debts. I am a thousand miles away from the comfort of my family, friends and church family. I have the temptation to feel alone. Overwhelmed by these odds, I know one thing ... my Jesus stays with me not just to comfort me but strengthen me.

Memoirs of Mommy Ko (part 1)

2012-02-10T01:07:00.004+08:00

Mommy is not just an ordinary grandmother. She stood to beour mother when both of our parents work. When the family is growing, havingeight kids to feed and three more from extended family member, both papa andmama need to work to provide for us. Mommy chose to stay with us and take careof us. She taught us a lot of things while growing up. She trained us to dohousehold chores and gave us schedule to take turns. I remembered alwaystidying up the table while Loida would sweep the floor and vice versa. Dish washingis for my older sisters since she’s afraid we would break dishes because thesink is too high for us. I would also pump the water pump for her while shewashes our clothes after breakfast. I would stay with her the whole laundryprocess and intently watching her as she do “almirol” white polo shirts. As achild, I asked a lot of things which I am thankful because she patientlyanswers every question I have. She would eventually give me a treat afterwardsby picking up “mabolo fruit” from a high “mabolo” tree. The fruit is prickly soshe would scrub the small pricks for me before I eat them. After that, we’llclean up the whole garden. It’s actually like the “Bahay Kubo” which issurrounded by a lot of vegetables. Then after harvesting, we would go to thekitchen and I will watch her cook. There was one time when she cooked coconutto produce coconut oil. I would constantly glance at the frying pan to see howoil is produced by the coconut. She would always correct me and tell me not tolook too much because the coconut might not produce oil at all (“”wag kangtingin ng tingin baka di lumabas yung langis”). As child who often thinkslogically, I just don’t get her at all. It was just when I grow up that I realizedthat she just doesn’t want me to have an accident because of my curiosity. She hada way of saying things to correct us. If something is missing, she would tellus to look with our eyes not with our mouth (“Huwag kang maghanap gamit angbunganga mo kundi maghanap ka sa mata). She was just plainly saying, stopasking everybody, and instead find things on your own.

Our house was made of wood that’s why every morning each oneof is scheduled to scrub the floor using dried coconut (bunot) - that is afterapplying the floor wax and letting it dry for a while. Then we’ll use “trapo”(floor cloth) to wipe the floor to look like it’s totally polished. Later on,we sweep the floor again to remove any dust accumulated from the floor cloth. Afterdoing chores in the morning, I still remember Mommy, Loida and I will stayoutside our house’s long porch and hang out. She would check our hair and oneby one squeeze them. I enjoy those lazy afternoons because I get the chance tohear a lot of stories from her life and most from her childhood (which I planto write next time to ease myself from missing her).

We actually thought she will live forever – I actuallytaught she will live to see her grandchildren from me. She had a confessionthat she will live to see all her grandchildren from us. Loosing her, loosingsomeone very close, loosing someone who had always been there all my lifesomehow creates a void in my heart. Good thing, I have a God Who can fill thatemptiness. It’s just that…it’s hard to let her go sometimes.

Mommy: eulogy

2012-02-08T23:35:00.000+08:00

Mommy is not a perfect grandmother. Like any other grandmother, she hasfavourites. Sa palagay ko, ako ang paborito niya. I still remember when shewould not bring anybody but me in the market. Hindi kasi ako nanunuro atmagpapabili. I would just stand and hold her basket as I wait for her while shebargains with her “suking tindera.” Yesterday, I bought “itlog na maalat”because it reminds me of our time in the market together where I asked her,“bakit itong itlog pareho naman pero mas mahal yung isa?” She patientlyanswered, “Kasi ito may asin at luto na. Yung isa, hindi pa.” As we go on, shewould patiently answer every queries I have. My first memory of her was when Iwas in “bae Tataw’s house” at nagde-dede ako. She would pat me to sleep andsings make up songs. I love it when she do that thinking to myself, I can makemy own songs too – which I eventually did. The song that really stayed in myheart is that about Jesus…kasi mas maikli at parang established yung melody.That is why I told myself, that’s a song, a real song. My passion to sing forthe Lord is from my parents and from actually seing her worship every time shesings and puts us to sleep.

She taught me a lot of things in life. From household chores toinformation about “tsaang gubat” to what to do during my first menstrual periodeven to the point of how to fold dry clothes and underwear. She has been thereto teach me, to teach us. She had been there for me – even when I was depressedbecause I had goiter. She was beside me praying when I had been attacked byheart palpitation and I thought I will die. She was beside me, praying intongues. And here I am, still alive. That is because I have a grandma whobelieved in God. Among all other grandchildren, I get to be with her thelongest – 33 years! Taong bahay kasikami. You see, I’m her favourite. But then again, she has a way of showing eachone of us that we are her favourite grandchildren.

She had always been there – even when I was homesick and having a hardtime coping in Singapore, I would cry and call out her name. If only she had acellphone, I would call her up and talk to her. She always knows what to do.But of course, I wouldn’t call her because she worries too much. I think thatis how she shows her love by being concern about what concerns her loved ones.When mama told me the news about what the doctor said – that only 30% of herheart is functioning, I taught to myself, “maybe she had used up the 70% of herheart to loving us.” Now that she’s with the Lord, the Lord will multiplyeverything she had given and much more because the seed she has planted willcontinue from this generation to the next.

When most would give land and money as inheritance when they die, Mommyleft us inheritance that is far beyond material things. The legacy she left isfamily values, brotherhood and above all, her faith in God. Today, as she iswith the Lord, I believe she is singing and I want to sing a song with her.Mommy, you may not be here but you will be alive in our memories.

A different morning in Singapore

2012-02-04T08:01:00.001+08:00

This morning is different. Unlike any other mornings when I'm caught up with work and worries and eventually casting them to the Lord...this morning is way different. Mommy decided to have a heaven-homecoming this 4:15am. Her body is still on earth but I know she is not here anymore. I will surely miss her but I rejoice with her because she gets to see Jesus.

hopeful

2011-11-27T23:29:00.001+08:00

a good tomorrow is coming my way. thanks to Jesus who secures my future so I could sleep tonight and expect a lot of good things to come my way. thank You Jesus, nothing compares to the hope I have because of your promise to me.

Sundays

2011-11-20T21:58:00.001+08:00

Sundays usually the highlight of my week...it is where usually my work begins. I used to work full time in the church. For the reason that I wanted to upgrade myself (and for a lost love I used to have), I took the opportunity to work and study abroad. Nowadays, my Sundays are filled with Gospel of Grace messages in the morning, serving the children's church during lunch, long naps in the afternoon and work in the evenings. But in between afternoon naps and working evenings, I usually feel homesick. I've been in Singapore for more than a year now and homesickness doesn't seem to leave me alone. Ugh! The irony! I usually feel lonely when I'm homesick. When I would try to think about why is it, I would end up answering myself - I'm trying to bring the new wine into the old wine skin. The tendency is that it will explode.

God has been good to me here in Singapore - no doubt, no complain about it. And for the past year, I have seen how the Lord has delivered me everyday. Not that I need deliverance every day, it's just that being by myself - and by that I mean literally by myself (actually for the past three months since a break up), made me independent. I don't exactly know if it's embarrassing to admit that it's my first time to be independent at age 34. By independent I mean I fend for myself - no papa or mama to ask for advice or money...hehehe. Independence has cost and one of which is loneliness or homesickness. I live with two friends in SG, with which I shouldn't be homesick or lonely. But somehow, being not around my family for that long made me remorseful. I wasn't away with them for a year for almost three years...when I decided to love a man and protect this man even from them. After two years and ten months, this man just gave up on "us." Ah, if only I'd listened to my pastor's advice then it wouldn't hurt that much. But then again, if I hadn't fall in love, I wouldn't go this far. I went this far not because he loved me but because I loved him. Realizing those things, I have seen how gracious God has been to both of us. Moving on seems so slow when I look at my situation and my feelings. It's just a 'down' day for me since I'm tired and homesick. But every time I look to Jesus and let the Holy Spirit unveil Jesus and His love for me, things are easy to let go.

I'm very much blessed with today's message by Pastor Prince. The statement that struck me was about ... "when God doesn't make a way, don't try to break through." A big point for me - although it wasn't all about that because Pastor Prince was expounding on Ephesians 3:20. However, I just realized that things are easier to let go when I don't doubt God's goodness. Amen, amen! God specifically put that verse in the Bible to let me know that

Now to Him who is able
Now to Him who is able to do
Now to Him who is able to do what we ask
Now to Him who is able to do what we ask or think
Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly what we ask or think
Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly, abundantly, above all what we ask or think
Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us,

Four Animals and a Bridge

2011-11-20T21:22:00.001+08:00

Bridge from Ting on Vimeo.

On my way to work ...on the bus

2011-11-11T07:01:00.001+08:00

Reading Psalms 37 with the New Covenant in mind makes my heart 'stout' and secure. Yesterday, I went home late from work to finish some things. I was tired but as I walk to the bus stop, I choose to relax and slowly walk. I caught the bus that will take me straight to my hdb. I reached home safe and sound and meditating on the Word while soaking in the presence of God. I just experienced the presence of the Lord mightily when I got inside my room. It lead me to declare things that I want to see in my lifeand prayed in tongues. It was refreshing both for my tired mind and body. Before sleeping, negative and insecure thought tried to get a hold of me. I choose not to and sleep. When I wake up this morning I realized that the enemy would want me to think otherwise. That is why we bring every thought into captivity about what Jesus did at the cross. It made me secure enough to know how much I am loved by my Father.
Thinking about this things, I realized that the Lord allow me to be separated for a while in the ministry to find my security and identity in Him - not with my family or with people I associate with. And the Word is not just for sharing for ministering's sake but fir an actual application in my life. The Word being 'rod and staff' has never been this surreal. It has been my comfort and shield during panic attack.

Psalms 37 AMP

On worship leading

2011-11-10T06:43:00.001+08:00

It just came to me tha kuya Israel would line up songs on how the Lord works in his life for that week and would ask Gid again for confirmation so it will minister to the congregation

Outline
Nothing is impossible
Healer (just the bridge)
You hold my world in Your hands
Moving forward

This outline speaks to my situation today and how Isaiah 43:18-19 is revealed to me.

Continuing in the Spirit of Grace!

hitting that spot

2011-10-27T19:17:00.002+08:00

For two months now, I still am going in and out of that emotional state of recovering and forgetting. Most days things are easy to let go and forget and some days could be very dragging me emotionally to the point of being hopeless. It's good to share these things to some people and a fellow teacher, Erma just gave me an advice that hit that right spot of actually waking me up. You know what she said that gives me a "boink" in the head? She said, "Don't waste your youth, you're still young. Move on with your life." She have a BIG point. Coming from a 40-year old person, yes, she's right, I'm still young. I'm doing all of these by faith...forgiving by faith and eventually, forgetting by faith.

a new day

2011-10-23T16:22:00.003+08:00

Mrs. Noele Wong was lecturing during Math Literacy when it dawned up to me that children can only see what they can see however, teachers or parents can develop them to have long term goal. I almost went to "sisi" mode but then I snapped out of it and tell myself, it is time. I have been seeing what's in front of me since Jesus has been teaching me to look beyond all these years. Ayos! So I decided to make plans while I am in SG and do some unusual activities I haven't tried yet like para-gliding or do zip lines. I even encouraged my friends to venture around town as if we're tourist. Exciting as it seems, I realized that I need money to do it and if I will save then I can do it. But then, how's my savings? And again, panic mode seems to overtake again. U thought about the money, my age, my future of getting married and having my own family. What if it's too late...what if...yes, what ifs. Good thing, I went to church. God's message for me today is simple - don't worry. Yes, it's true, worrying will not take me anywhere but trusting in Jesus will take me to places at the right place at the right time. Amazing! This one thing I need to settle in my heart...that whatever challenges I have right now or no matter how hopeless things for me, having the revelation of the fullness of Jesus will enable me to achieve my potential, promote me and give me a desirable outcome (talking about Psalms 37:4). I wanted not to be bitter anymore - tama na, nakakapagod eh...nakakawala pa ng focus. I just need to rest in Jesus' love for me - basking in His love and not 'sweat' on things that has already been given to me. Like Pastory Henry said today, "Worship is me turning away my eyes on my situation and focusing it on Jesus. As I continue to behold Him, answers will keep on coming." Eh, the reason why I am this bitter is because of the unanswered questions I have it my mind. Now I know what exactly I will do. Salamat Jesus. Now I know You love me because You did not witheld Your Son, Your only Son Whom You love. He is more than enough Father.

going in and out

2011-10-21T21:49:00.002+08:00

Today have been very rewarding for me as a teacher. From the time I started working in SG as teachers, I have been unappreciated for the past year. I must admit that appreciation from my students is through hugs and kiss and compliments. Ok, ok...I know. Yes, I have lots of those and I've been neglecting them. I seem to look for the same appreciation I have been having in the PI. Well, I have what I've been desiring for. Today, Rubs (one of my students) made a progress in using her pot-pot. We've been doing it for three weeks (with her mom's help at home) and it seems like she's not making any progress. After two weeks, talking to her about the toilet bowl itself and encouraging her to sit...she finally sit down and didn't cry. Yey! High five to Ms. me...hehehe.

Another thing is that I've been experiencing a dilemma. I'm literally going in and out of being emotionally hurt. Actually, I miss a person but at the same time wanting to smack this person on the face and hurt this person until this person bleeds. Don't get me wrong or have wrong thoughts toward me. The former statement is a real deal but the latter one is figurative. Could going in and out of this feeling a part of healing? How could it be? The same person makes me happy and sad at the same time. Ugh! Am I falling in love again? Maybe not. Remorse - that's it. Imagine being the most important person once but now, the least. Aist!

Drama Queen

2011-10-12T06:57:00.001+08:00

I'm having a hard time forgiving myself of disillusionmement - again.

dampered

2011-09-27T09:35:00.000+08:00

I'm depress, I'm literally depress and lonely. I honestly don't know what to do about it. Don't want to deny it anymore, I am really depress. Didn't go to work today for that specific reason...haven't been having any decent sleep because of this depression... keeps me restless and vengeful. Don't know who can I talk to about it and if I did, will that person keep my secret and can that person help me. God knows how much I wanted to be comforted by my family and that I know for sure they can. But in doing so, even after break up, I'm still protecting the man who broke my heart. If only I could tell my family to protect me from this man who broke my heart. I venture with a dream of being with someone but then I end being alone, utterly alone.

a year

2011-09-19T21:20:00.002+08:00

I will celebrating my one year in Singapore and I thank God for it. God has been so good in everything - how He supplied for all I need and how He become all that I need Him to be.

A year ago, just exactly the same day as today, my heart was enveloped in grief of leaving a comfort place and people who brings comfort. My heart almost feels like crushed when I left Philippines but then hopeful of the things to come. A year has gone now and I'm glad I am still here.

One thing though... my heart is crushed still because I lost the one that gives me reason to venture where I am now. He gave me up. After professing his love for me, after believing God together for 2 years and 10 months, he gave me up... for those very same reasons. It's hard to let go, I never imagined I will end up heart broken.

thinking all about it

2011-09-17T17:11:00.005+08:00

Having dinner with Ver and Candice makes me feel like I'm in the Philippines. I treat them out to eat at Sakon Thai which just at the other side of the road from where I live. They have authentic Thai cuisine there and it would be nice to let them taste "soft chili crab." Candice encourages me to "pauso ang childcare center sa pilipinas." It wasn't a bad idea though - I might do it. Another thing that we have talked about was our struggles with our job, how literally how job drag us to wake up every morning. Candice said that we will eventually discover where we fit in and that will be the time when we will find contentment.

She definitely have a point. I guess I'm slowly realizing a lot of things after almost a year in Singapore, living independently. Independently living has a lot things to it, some good, some you can't bear but eventually overcome. Living here for almost a year now made me realize my forte is not just in music but in teaching children - preschool education I mean. But then again, I'm still getting the hang of it since pre school education here in SG is way too different from my background in the Philippines. Anyhow, I'm beginning to learn the curves and details of the profession. Our role is like an educator, caregiver, child psychologist and nanny - all rolled into one.

One sad realization is that I never did prioritize or include in my priority list - or at least in my long term goals, that I'd get married. When I was younger, I thought it would be easy but it is not. After a lot of disillusions and a real, major heart break, I must say it is not that easy. Heart break causes fear and anxiety to rise in one's heart and the tendency to shut down on allowing nobody in your 'trust' area again. Ah, the reason is very obvious...it's the fear of getting hurt again. I was inside my class this afternoon doing some room decoration when I'm reminded about the hurt. I can't help but cry again, unstoppable. I have already forgiven but the memory of hurt keeps coming back like it just happened yesterday. It was during those times that I have heard the most reassuring voice in my ears saying, " I AM here for you. I will never leave you. I will restore to you everything that the enemy steal from you." Then I replied back, "But Lord, I'm not getting any younger." The Lord eventually said, "I will satisfy you with long life." I reasoned out, "But Lord, I don't want to live longer to be a burden. Will I have a child?" The Lord Jesus, keeps on reassuring by saying, "Yes, even your youth I will renew." The song "For You, I will" by Monica sealed that conversation.

Watching "You've got mail" with Dana and Eloi made me hope again. The hope that someday, I will love again and this time, a man can bravely love me - all the way.

weeping over a movie

2011-09-12T22:13:00.002+08:00

i used to watched love stories turned movies... they are my favourite. watching love stories made me so much hopeful that one day i will find the one that will bring spark to my eyes, tingling sensation to my nerves, makes my heart pound and butterfly to my stomach.
... i thought i did. watching love stories again made my heart crushed because of the promises failed and my heart sick because of hope deferred. it made me wonder why- for a person, i'm easy to let go. i regretted the decision i made but then whatever the enemy intended for bad, i could always have hope that Jesus will turn into good.

even in the midst of heart break, a voice - a very strong voice shouts in my heart and in my head that Jesus died single so I will not be...He died alone so I will surrounded by people who loves me... He died of a broke heart so no heart break can kill me.

adapting to changing season

2011-09-11T20:05:00.004+08:00

i am actually in a changing season. a year ago, i came here in Singapore with high hopes of purposes - one of which is for my future. two months ago, those purpose came crumbling down. i literally do not know where i'd pick myself up. it was devastating. the thing that i prayed for and believed God for two years and ten slowly taken away from me. i wanted so bad to grip it but the more i do, the more it got snatched from my hand. i came to a point of thinking my God is not good. but thank God for pastor Joseph Prince, i am once again reminded that the will of my Father is for me and not against me...that my Father's heart is to give. i rest in my Father's love for me because of Jesus.

all of a sudden, i thought i was disillusioned again but God kept on affirming in my heart to consistently trust in His love. i guess i wanted approval which i tend to not get from people and circumstance. i realized, i don't have to. a seasonal word for me was that "when Jesus is in the center of your, everything false into places...every knee shall bow, every circumstances will give into favour on you...every sicknesses healed...every brokenness restored...every tongue confess that Jesus is Lord." that actually comes from Pastor Lian.

church...i miss my church and the ministry people i learn to love in the Philippines. and even i'd deny it, i somehow tend to look for that warm welcoming environment which honestly i was not able to find in my ncc cg. never felt so much prejudiced and rejected before because of my age. i literally felt like an outcast. just makes me wonder how a leader who's so gracious would have a small group who had been a 'law' to me. i really tried to connect but it doesn't work. then again, i am happy that God brought me to Rock Kidz beloved 1a team. these people had been accommodating, approachable and friendly to me. although i am greatly blessed with pastor Benjamin's preaching, i'm thinking really hard if i'd go back there again. no offense...just don't want to meet the snubbing peepz, not my thing to force myself into a group when i am not celebrated. obvious, yeah, really obvious...i was offended and belittled. anyhow, i give it all to the Lord and breath in grace.

i feel like withdrawn lately because i was hurt by my situation and some people. i went to egr and could not minister like i used to. i don't want to, i'm hurting during that time and to make things worst, the wound in my heart is as fresh as the dew during those times. sometimes, i thought to myself that it's a waste of money for going there and extending my stay in PI but then again, i am most happy because i was able to share grace to HCM.

so what now? honestly, i really don't know. one thing i know, i have to let Jesus sit in the center of everything so these things will fall into the right places.

It takes ambition to go places but passion powers a dream.

2011-05-22T17:49:00.002+08:00

I'm always torn between two worlds - the past and the present, the old and the new. I'm talking about me in the PI and me in SG. I will be here for the next four years and it's my eight month now. It seems like it's been ages and I still miss the things I do in PI. Aside from missing my family terribly, I miss the ministry - the worship leading, music, lecturing, counselling and mentoring. I miss the jamming sessions I have with the CCC team and music team from the network. I served the Rock Kidz the third time today and I felt like crying because I miss the atmosphere of serving God withjoy. How I wish I could look at work like that not a task I should be completing or else I would starve to death. Working for surviving is the most excruciating thing. Am I beginning to be like Singaporeans who are stress junkies? It's like all of a sudden I forget I'm a Filipino...relax, laid back and happy. I have this belief in life that I'm good at anywhere I'm assigned because of God's Word in Joshua 1:1-8 given to me when I was seventeen. And I was good - glory to God who enables me to be. I give in to a thought that I am not - a thought was never in the Word. Today, I realize the importance of abiding in the Vine.

God's Best and I'm walking in it

2011-05-15T20:11:00.002+08:00

The Lord Jesus, who perfectly loves you prepares the best for you. He wants the best for you and He's causing you to walk in it. - Joseph Purcell

i had the most "self-pitying" attack last night and it left me crying. i just attended GenRev and i entertained a negative thought which lasted until this morning. good thing i attended the morning service. pastor lawrence preached and i was greatly blessed by the message of the Lord. it was a message that i heard before even i preached before but i've seen it through the eyes of the gospel of grace. i realized that i cannot depend on any one but God to rescue me. today, He made me walk on water. Peter asked Jesus, "Lord, if it is you, ask me to get out of the boat." Jesus answered, "Come."

Here I go Lord ^_^

status

2011-05-12T20:35:00.000+08:00

yeah...it's up and down - more like a roller coaster and so much thrilling when you're on top and depressing when you're down low. above all, God has been faithful - really. Thank God for the message of Grace, I can relax in a stress-junkie, fast-paced environment. last monday was a holiday...so i just strolled around the vicinity thinking i'm in the philippines - minus the people i love to hang out with in PI. but then, there's God and there's food...hehehe. tried jogging last saturday morning and end up jogging too much cause my body hurts the next day. one thing i learn from this - don't jog during 9am in singapore - sush! LOL.

after suppressing myself from eating food for a week, i returned almost eating until i'm buffed. yikes! yup...to the point that my back hurts from too much weight in my stomach - that, of course, is just my conclusion...hehehe.

i have thoughts of wanting to get married...that ladies with my age should be getting married and rearing a child. yes, i want a baby - but with my situation right now, a baby will not be good...though i want to have one. i guess it's because the pre-nursery i teach are so adorable - super adorable.

serving in the rock kidz makes me feel literally light-hearted though i must admit that last sunday, i don't feel like to. however, i felt better after eating of the bread and drinking of the blood.

i have 3,000words essay due on may 26 and 4 module exam on the 29th of June. thank God for His grace.

The world is peripheral to the Church

2011-04-03T18:01:00.003+08:00

Ephesians 1:22-23 (The Message)

20-23All this energy issues from Christ: God raised him from death and set him on a throne in deep heaven, in charge of running the universe, everything from galaxies to governments, no name and no power exempt from his rule. And not just for the time being, but forever. He is in charge of it all, has the final word on everything. At the center of all this, Christ rules the church. The church, you see, is not peripheral to the world; the world is peripheral to the church. The church is Christ's body, in which he speaks and acts, by which he fills everything with his presence.

God constantly remind me of why I am here for through Pastor Prince's preaching today. It's amazing how God work things out for me - specially in the toughest time and He's able to deliver me in every single thing. As I was sitting and listening to God's message today through Pastor Prince, God reminded me that I am here for the Church. I have forgotten...one of the reason - main reasons why I am here is to bring the people I lead to places where God has brought me. Not just physically on but into spiritual journey also. I am more fixed today on the Gospel of Grace and thank God it just fit my present situations. Yesterday, He told me that He's going to give me a new vision of myself. And last night as Pastor Benjamin was talking, I am seeing myself in so many ways - helping children and educators, getting married and having two to three kids, and a blessing to my family and local church. Today, God reminded me that He's my Companion Traveler, He's always with me wherever I go - as in always,the more I give to the Church, the more I will receive and never dry up; God diligently rewards every seed I have sown for the Church - whatever I give to the Lord, He will never compromise. Above all, "You don't face the enemy (trials, difficulty, challenges, issues) with Jesus behind you. Jesus face the enemy and you face Jesus. Look to Jesus and He will face off your enemy. Keep on feeding on Jesus' love for you and His accomplished work at the cross."

I know, I will be feeding on Jesus' love for me.

Inner Vision is the language of Faith

2011-04-03T00:15:00.002+08:00

I attended the GENREV the second time. It feels so good the first time to have myself connected with fellow christian at the same time encourage my friends to attend too. But tonight, I'm specifically blessed and awaken. Ptr. Benjamin preached about inner vision (vision of self) as the language of faith. I was reminded of what God had showed me ten years ago...about singing in front of a lot of people with black hair but not Filipinos. I just realized that it was the Rock Auditorium. Awesome! But that was not the striking one. God just spoke to me - again and said, "I'm going to give you a fresh vision of yourself." I got really excited because He reminded me of many things He had shown me in the past and many promises I will be seeing this year coming to fulfillment. It has been a hard week for me. Got exhausted from all the work that I need to pass, I wanted to be in a place to celebrate a birthday and I can't be there...and more, a parent withdraw her child because of how I manage my class. It was degrading and frustrating that when my director talked to me, I just burst out in tears. She was kind, she's really kind but I was so down that no word seems to lift me up until tonight. Ah, all it takes is just the Word of God at the right season and at the right time.
I realized that I keep looking to myself and what I can do. I've been reminded many times through the preaching of Ptr. Prince and Ptr. Liam that I should think of God's goodness all throughout the week... think of supply not lack. They kept on telling me that whatever is God-given is God-maintained. I was trying to maintain it for myself and it just left frustrated and denied. However, the Word of the Lord tonight brings so much pleasure and delight in my ears that I keep seeing things differently - that everything is God-given and so it will be God-maintained... that I need to remember that whatever God showed me in the past and promised me, He will let it come to pass year. Thank YOU, jESUS.

God’s Superabounding Grace For You

2011-03-15T04:37:00.000+08:00

2 Corinthians 9:8
8And God is able to make all grace abound toward you, that you, always having all sufficiency in all things, may have an abundance for every good work.

If you were in the same synagogue as the man with the withered hand (Luke 6:6–11), how would you see him and what do you think you would say to him?

Jesus was preaching in that synagogue when He saw the man with the withered hand. But He also saw superabounding grace around that hand for healing and wholeness. He sees differently from us. He sees the invisible. He sees that the kingdom of God is here, ever-present in any situation, with superabundant supply. We see only the visible, which is tangible, temporal and which seems so real to us.

But Jesus saw superabounding grace on that withered hand for healing because you do not tell a man with a withered hand, “Stretch out your hand,” unless you see the supply, the superabundance for wholeness for that hand. Jesus called forth the superabounding grace to envelop that man’s withered hand, and the hand was made whole.

It is possible for someone who is sick to have superabounding grace on him and yet that superabundance of grace does not heal his body. That is because he keeps acknowledging the lack or the problem he sees. He is more concerned with that which is visible and temporal.

Instead of calling forth, and acknowledging and confessing the superabundance of God’s grace, he confesses his negative circumstance all the time. So even though the superabounding grace is there, it is there in vain. Isn’t that sad?

Jesus called forth life, and life sprang into visibility. We must call forth what we want to see. Say, “Father, I thank You that right now, though my health is under attack, there is superabounding grace available for my healing and health. I call it forth and receive it now in Jesus’ name. Amen!”

My friend, don’t be conscious of what you see lacking or missing. Be conscious of God’s superabounding grace for you and avail yourself of it!

Retrieved on March 15, 2010 from http://www.newcreation.org.sg/resources/daily-devotional/

low, low

2011-03-12T23:06:00.002+08:00

i am feeling so low today. i'm sick and not even one family member around to take care of me or at least miss me. can't blame them, i drifted myself away from them so they can't hurt me with their words. it's time like this that i miss mommy. even mama still have some issues about her, i still find her love for me unconditional. maybe all grandmothers are like that to their grandchildren. even so, i'm emotionally low today. good thing, i get to rest tonight and tomorrow will be sunday. thank God.

ugh

2011-03-10T17:23:00.002+08:00

i miss home...i really do but for the mean time, i have no budget to go home. you know..."pasalubong" stuff can be stressing. i know a lot of people so i'm kinda stressed of what to give them since i'm working and studying at the same time. i know some wouldn't mind but most when they know you came from abroad would definitely expect you'd give them "pasalubong." i can go home this april because we have 4-day holiday but then i decided not to cause i don't get to buy anybody anything or at least have some money to spend with *sigh* ... ok lang. dito na lang ako magha-holiday. thank God, tomorrow is friday ^_^

believe right, live right

2011-03-09T19:36:00.002+08:00

Jayson: pag mabuti kana wag kanang magpakasama,,, hindi bagay...! waahahahahaha
3 hours ago

Bam Cavanero: di rin!!!..hehe..=))

Vic Medina: tama bam i agree...

Joanna Abigail: You are already made righteous through what Jesus did at the cross...you are forgiven forever. So there should be no more consciousness of sin. If you're still conscious of sin, you're vexing your soul that is why you feel guilty all the time and feels like you don't deserve any good thing when in fact, you're meant to receive all good things because Jesus paid the price. You don't have to do anything to merit those things, you receive it by believing Jesus' love for you. You don't live right because you don't believe right. RIGHT BELIEVING (not doing) results to RIGHT LIVING. What do you believe that brought you where you are?

Rejoicing again

2011-03-09T17:58:00.002+08:00

Philippians 4:4 (New King James Version)
4 Rejoice in the Lord always. Again I will say, rejoice!

Riding the bus is usually my time for devotion. Unusual as it seems but I have a lot of revelation from the Word during this time. And I thought of writing it down so it will not be stolen from me.

Listening to the gospel of Grace through pastor Prince have blessed me so much. And the more I listen, the more it's revealed to me. Praise God

We don't look at what we can do, we look at what Jesus had accomplished at the cross therefore, we can do ALL things. Rejoice not in your situation or things that are temporal...rejoice IN THE LORD! Meaning, rejoice in what you have in JESUS - rejoice you're unconditionally loved, you're forgiven forever, you're healed continuously, you're righteous forever, you're made rich in every way, you have unlimited RESOURCE, you have a FATHER, you've got a FRIEND, a BROTHER...should I say more? In Christ forever we stand...not for anything or no one.

The statement that started it all

2011-02-18T20:22:00.004+08:00

I had an unforgettable conversation with one of my pre nursery today. He was having a tantrum again when I asked him to help me feed the turtles.

Ms. Ela: Ben, would you like to help me feed the turtles?
Benjamin: Sure, Ms. Ela.
Ms. Ela: Swallow your food first then we can feed the turtles.
Benjamin: I'm done Ms. Ela.
(He throws the food to the turtles and was delighted to see them. Then he intently asked me,
Bejamin: Are you happy Ms. Ela?
I just smiled thinking that somehow he could read my mind, I answered, "Yes, I'm happy. How about you? Are you happy?
Bejamin: Yes, I'm happy.
Ela: What makes you happy?
Benjamin: The turtles! (he excitedly replied.)

He's like an adult talking to me... and I really wanted to answer him in complete honesty. I like to say that I'm happy but I miss my family and a lot of people, even the things I do. I wanted to tell him that I have been frustrated for the past week and self pity's creeping its way to my brain. But then again, it's time to move on and focus on my purpose. There are many things that makes me look back and linger and for the past weeks, moving forward has been very hard. Today I made a decision that worrying and lingering will only lead me to unbelief, fear and anxiety. This is my life today and I should embrace it. It's not for selfish reasons but for a good one. The Lord has been teaching a lot of things that the next time I go up the pulpit I can really testify that God is so good all the time - in spite of. In every details and in every area of my life today, God has proven His goodness and I have seen how His grace carries me, enables me, strengthens me and motivated me to look beyond what I see and feel.

Am I happy? Yes, I'm happy because God is good. All the time? Definitely!

-_-

2011-01-22T14:40:00.002+08:00

I've come a long way from where I started. And again, I'm in another adjusting period...new house, new teaching position and new co teacher. I've been experiencing loneliness lately that I eventually connect to frustration and homesickness. *Sigh* - yes, I'm doing this again. I feel so sad today, hopeless. I know it's just what I feel but not really the truth. Should I envy others when I know I have the desire of my heart - that is to come here? I miss singing and playing the piano...I'm so sad and lonely - pressured, anxious cause my money is down to $20. Hay, naku...Lord gaano katagal ang biyaheng ito?

My heart rejoices

2010-11-07T21:44:00.002+08:00

My heart rejoices at the facts that You love me so much, that You knew me and predestined me to live the good and abounding life.
I get to be intimate with You and call You not just a Friend but a Brother.
Dad, thanks for loving me so. Brother, You have been so good to me - so, so good I can't imagine my life without You. I have and always will find my identity in You.
Dad, I see that I'm covered in Your everlasting and unrelenting love.

I am my Beloved and He is mine. His banner over me is love.

Love everlasting, grace unrelenting.
Pursued me from the start and captured my heart.
You've overwhelmed me with Your tender mercies
Now everything I am lives to worship You.

Spoken straight at me

2010-10-24T22:57:00.005+08:00

I'm very much blessed with the preaching of the Word today. But what really impacted me was God spoke straight at me through Pastor Prince. I believe it's a prophetic Word from God even though it doesn't sound like one for others but it is for me. It was so straight that I almost fall to my seat. Pastor Prince talked about Hope and Faith and it was such a blessing to see Jesus even in that. As he continually talks about the subject, he suddenly said, "You think you're here so that God can give you a job. You're here because God is creating influence." My being all of a sudden burst with excitement. So what does God meant there? I'm thrilled to find out - I'll just go wherever He leads me.

As I look at the pictures from EGR (October 22-23)... I was so envious. It has been a humbling experience for me to just sit and listen. I've always been a Mary and Martha but God is teaching me to be a solo Mary. I pray, I will soon see the "one thing" that God wants me to do.

P.S.
Did I mention that we're seated at the second row of the Rock auditorium...in the middle where Pastor Prince just literally in front of us? Yup, it gave the Word more impact so it had been so important because God let me sit near. Naku...si Lord talaga ^_^

2010-10-24T22:57:00.001+08:00

Assurance

2010-10-21T22:05:00.003+08:00

“I desire to do your will, O my God; your law is within my heart.”
Psalm 40:8 NIV

I have the opportunity to pray for one of my room mate today and I'm very much thrilled of what God is about to do in my life. For the past days, it has been humbling. I'm used of leading big groups and congregation then all of a sudden, I went from preaching in the pulpit to just sitting and listening to Pastor Prince's preaching. After praying with my room mate, I realized that this is my marketplace - for the mean time. I'm glad and thrilled after ministering. Kahit saan talaga ako pumunta, ministering to people is what makes me thrilled and excited.

I only have $SD11 on my hands but I'm happy and assured that there is more. I believe, there is more than working and studying here. It is written in John 10:10. I just confess what I believe and that's it - I got it ^_^

I receive Your love today, Lord.

Sitting with Mary

2010-10-17T17:34:00.003+08:00

I was preparing for church today to attend New Creation Church when I asked God, "Lord, what do you want me to do? Help small churches here or continue to attend NCC?" He just simply answered, "You are here to learn." I replied, "Lord, I can minister." And He said, "This (pertaining to the dormitory where I am staying) is your marketplace."

Honestly speaking, I miss doing ministry. Working here in Singapore have made me adjust to many things - including my lifestyle during Sundays. At home, I minister to 4 services but here...I just attend one service and have to line up so I could have a seat in the house. It's almost a month and I haven't sing but then a consolation is I have played the piano.

As we worship this morning, there's one thing I told the Lord... I just missed worshiping and playing the piano. I can't do it where I'm staying because the landlady don't like any loud music - singing for that matter.

Contentment

2010-10-10T17:43:00.002+08:00

Philippians 4:10-12 (NLT)
10 How I praise the Lord that you are concerned about me again. I know you have always been concerned for me, but you didn’t have the chance to help me. 11 Not that I was ever in need, for I have learned how to be content with whatever I have. 12 I know how to live on almost nothing or with everything. I have learned the secret of living in every situation, whether it is with a full stomach or empty, with plenty or little.

This week's work started out really fine but during Thursday through Saturdays had been frustrating due to communication barrier. Over and over again, my Chinese co-teacher have offended. I forgave her. But yesterday, I came to a point of bursting out. Thank God, I didn't. I just talked to her about her offenses. The frustrating part about it is, she don't understand me at all. Honestly, I don't like working with people who slack, people who don't get things and people who are so slow. Frustrated, I went home to Ate Carla's house and spend the night there. Thank God, I was relieved. Ate Carla and Kuya Francis has been very kind to me whenever I go to their house. It was the most peaceful sleep I have in three weeks. Ok, I think their warmth and the air condition makes it happen. Yes, God has been really gracious!

I woke up early to attend church at New Creation Church. I'm glad it just took me an hour to get there and end up to be the first in line (or to queue). I was waiting for Eloisa to arrive when they ushered me to a seat near to the stage. Ah, yes! This is a big blessing for me cause I have been waiting for a seat near the stage to literally see Pastor Prince up close. And so I did. I was conscious with the camera though. Anyways, I enjoyed the music because they sang the songs I knew (new song, forever God is faithful, You are my Lord, I worship You, almighty God) and it just ministered to me. Pastor Prince preached about the Adventure of Faith. I'm blessed I'm really blessed. Thank You, Jesus! I hope to join a small group next time though. I miss church and ministry. But then, I will take it all gradually and just let the Lord do things for me.

The adjusting period could take quite some time because I have been living the same life for 16 years and I'm literally in the comfort zone. Challenges in my life today has been from left and right, front and back and around and around - I know you know what I mean. It may be so but God is so good that He has gone before me and took care of everything - whew! That's comforting to know. So today and for the rest of my days here on earth. In the name of Jesus, I command blessings, favor, health, prosperity, protection, dominion and power to fill my life!

Shortened Paragraph

2010-10-07T20:42:00.003+08:00

For so many times, I have attempted to write something here after I arrived to Singapore last September 20, 2010. At first, it was full of excitement about my new life here and at the same time, anxiousness of what's to come. Then I changed my mind about writing. However, the next days come and anxiety and panic seems to overwhelm me. So, I decided not to write. Today, I feel like complaining but then I realized it wouldn't be worth it. So, I'll see how I can vent things out from this past few days...

I'm literally out of my comfort zone. There are days I'm up and then I'm down. I'm talking about my emotions and adrenaline.There seems to be too much of many things about figuring things out, about observing and about personal. If only I could just write every little details of I'm expected of, then I'd write it. But, where I am today has been very "implied." What I meant is that I'm suppose to get it and do it - even when I don't really get it. I was emotionally alienated on my first week at my job then eventually adjusted to it. Then I was confused with how they do things but was able to adjust to it. Later on, I got frustrated of not doing things my way - or at least organized. That, I learn to accept it.

As a whole, I'm still adjust in so many ways. I feel like crying sometimes but I just look at the prize that's waiting after I finish everything that I need to do. There are times I feel like I'm taken advantaged of or belittled but I've realized, I need to make room for growth. And every growth needs adjustments. In every adjustments comes progress. *SIGH* I feel like crying again. Focusing on my purpose is a hard job - seriously and honestly. But then again, I would think about the future. I miss my family, I miss my ministry and I miss being home. There, I said it! I keep it for myself sometimes and most of the time I say it out loud. Not to others but to God. Good thing - God never get tired of my ramblings. Thank You, O Faithful God.

My recent work and life here in Singapore demands that I remind myself all the time of God's love for me. Yes, I need to have constant meditation, confession and internalization of God's love for me. If not, I will be bombarded by self-pity, confusion and regret. God is good - grabeh! He never let a moment pass by to just remind me of His love for me.

Thank You for the finished work at calvary, Jesus. I receive my prosperity, increase, promotion and breakthrough - today! Thank You for covering me with Your favor like a shield.

I can do all things when God says I can

2010-09-14T09:02:00.002+08:00

Colossians 1:17 (New International Version)
17He is before all things, and in him all things hold together.

PDOS was very exhausting - physically speaking. I guess I was not able to prepare myself. I lack sleep and I did not eat my breakfast or lunch and I have to sit and listen from 12:00nn to 7pm. However, it has been helpful for my trip.

It's not my first time to travel abroad but it will be my first time as an OFW. I must say, it feels weird at the same time, lonesome. But then again, it's a matter of mind set. After the PDOS was an opportunity to admire and be thankful to Papa. Hirap pala ng ginawa niya for us. The sacrifice he did for us was tremendous. Praise God for a father like papa!

I know I just have to focus. Though they may say I'm an OFW and presented to us the realities of our situation. One thing is clear, it's never the TRUTH. The truth is what God says in His Word. So as of now and for the next four years, I'll be focusing on one thing...forgetting the past and looking to what lies ahead. Do you know what I see? I see...no limits, no boundaries. I see increase all around me. Why so? Because God is good and never ceases to be good.

Knowing my purpose makes things stable. Praise God, this is founded on God's Word. This is my time, my season, a fulfillment of my jubilee!

I'm excited, I'm really, really excited!

Law of Problem Solving

2010-09-08T13:36:00.002+08:00

Law of Problem Solving
Excerpt from “Ultimate Reference Guide to Increase” by Rob Thompson

The Law of Problem Solving: The problems you solve determines the REWARDS you receive. (Joseph – Genesis 41:37-44; David – 1 Samuel 17:25, 45-50; Rahab – Hebrews 11:31; Joshua 2:4-6, 12-16; 6:23)

It is easy to understand why so many people go unrewarded in life – they are rarely seem to understand the correlation between sacrifices of problem solving that eventually lead to the sure road of promotion. Most people stop progressing upwardly the moment their present environment n longer pleases them.

The willingness to solve the problems of hose we are responsible to inlife will quickly reveal the VALUE that we place upon them.
When we begin to passionately solve problems, we receive the favor necessary to bring us the promotion we desire.

Many simply exist at their jobs and in their daily routines, sailing roughly through life’s meandering seas, unwilling to serve those around them. We can never grumble about life and expect the blessings of Heaven. Although productivity plays a great role within our lives, our attitude causes our productivity to become unpleasing. Everyone loves to be around an individual with a great attitude. Therefore, we must cheerfully and sacrificially solve the problems of those we serve.

Let us ask: What problems can we solve for our authorities? What can we do to make their lives more productive?

The sacrificial fulfillment of these answers brings you ever-increasing promotion. Choose to be a problem solver today!

good news

2010-09-08T05:14:00.003+08:00

I will cry to God Most High, Who performs on my behalf and rewards me [Who brings to pass His purposes for me and surely completes them]! Psalm 57:2 AMP

So now you are not a slave; you are God's child, and God will give you the blessing he promised, because you are his child. Galatians 4:7 NCV

The enemy will always tempt us to think otherwise. But again, a believer's capacity to receive resides in his decision to choose life or death. I have received from the Lord today what I have been praying for almost a year. As the Lord provides, I will be leaving on September 20.

Even so, I was tempted to act like my mother Sarah who thinks she can help God to fulfill His promise to Abraham. I end up, and should end up having confidence in what God has promised me simply because I am His child so there is the assurance of receiving from Him. "Lord, meron kang babayaran na placement fee, airfare and pocket money. Salamat sa biyaya mo kasi alam kong tatanggap ako sa'Yo ngayong araw na ito. In Jesus' name, Amen."

That is why never settle for a man-made solution to a God-given promise.

"Jesus, my Help...I call on Your name. I cast my cares on You."

God spoke to me twice

2010-08-24T10:41:00.003+08:00

"SINCE ALL this is true, we ought to pay much closer attention than ever to the truths that we have heard, lest in any way we drift past [them] and slip away" (Hebrews 2:1, AMP).

The Bible truths you’ve learned must stay with you always. Be careful not to allow them to slip away. - Creflo Dollar Jr.

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Proverbs 4:20–21
20My son, give attention to my words; incline your ear to my sayings. 21Do not let them depart from your eyes; keep them in the midst of your heart;

My friend, you will not lose out when you take time to sit down and listen to God’s Word. Even your health and well-being will be blessed. (Proverbs 4:22) So take time today to meditate on His Word. It will make your way prosperous (Joshua 1:8–9), and give you divine health and good success! - Joseph Prince

God spoke to me twice... before I sink into work and worries of life. Praise God!
I never thought that applying abroad would be so exhausting. I went off to Manila for a medical examination and I least expect that it will be like lining up to get my passport. The clinic is very small that we all, literally, looked like sardines in a small can. Lines are long and the place - oh the place is sooo hot! (God forgive me for complaining) If only I knew it would be like this, I would have left as early as 4am and open the clinic itself...hehe. God is good that before lunch break, my name was called. So, I have less time to wait in the afternoon. It's a hard to be alone, I'm at the verge of crying but then I set my mind that it's a preparatory training when I get to Singapore. I'm supposed to be back there today and have my ECG interpreted by the doctor they referred. I didn't go for the reason that I have to pay P500 again (excluding the 2,500 free for the whole examination). And guess what? I have to have all my teeth pasta'd for 350 each. Gosh, I have 6 of them! Just imagine that?! Good thing, the dentist there allowed me to have my teeth pasta'd here and just give them dental certificate. Tsk, tsk...kahit sa maliit na bagay ginagatasan kami. I just realized how the OFW's are taken advantage of by agencies and diagnostic clinics like these. No wonder, hindi sila tumatagal. Aani at aani din sila ng mga ginagawa nila! I finished at 5:30 pm but needs to plunge myself in and out the rush hour jungle. Grabe, ang daming tao! I was feeling weak, dizzy, hungry and literally exhausted when I have to endure another nagging mouth. Finally reached the end of my pc so I break down and cried. Tinahimik ko ng dalawang oras. While on my way home, a snatcher was swirling around me. I wanted to go confront the two guys but in my physical state, di ko silang kayang itulak o sumigaw ng tulong so I stayed in National Bookstore for one and a half hour. Then, praise God, I went home na. Whew! I'm still exhausted today even I already rested. What's more, needs seems to swallow the WORD that has been planted in me. But God spoke to me twice about not letting it slip away. Aren't you glad we have a God who consistently loving us and delivering us from self-destruction?

Salamat, Lord ha. Alam Mo naman na Ikaw ang tangi kong sandigan sa lahat ng panahon. Lalong, lao na sa ganitong panahon. I will always look at Your grace and believe, stand on Your Word and I know I will have all the good things You promised me.Today is my receiving day from You! Ay naks!.

1THE LORD is my Light and my Salvation--whom shall I fear or dread? The Lord is the Refuge and Stronghold of my life--of whom shall I be afraid?

2When the wicked, even my enemies and my foes, came upon me to eat up my flesh, they stumbled and fell.

3Though a host encamp against me, my heart shall not fear; though war arise against me, [even then] in this will I be confident.

Psalms 27:1-3 AMP

Life With God Is Easy And Light by Joseph Prince

2010-08-21T22:49:00.000+08:00

Matthew 11:28
28Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.

It always warms my heart to know that Jesus sees the cares we carry in our hearts. He knows the worries you have for your family and for the future. He feels the heaviness in your heart as you struggle with the sickness in your body. He says to you, “Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.”

Jesus wants to give you rest. And He says that the way you receive rest is to be yoked with Him, for His yoke is easy and His burden is light. (Matthew 11:29–30)

What does it mean to be yoked with Jesus? Imagine a pair of oxen yoked together. The younger ox sees what the lead ox does and follows. If the lead ox turns left, the younger ox turns left. If the lead ox stops, the younger ox stops. When the lead ox starts moving again, the younger ox follows. Likewise, Jesus wants us to follow His leading and flow with Him.

It is not hard to flow with Jesus because He will not lay anything heavy on you — “For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.” (Matthew 11:30) When you are yoked with Him and you flow with Him, you will find that there is nothing heavy-hearted, ill-fitting or burdensome from the Lord. When you flow with the Lord, you will find that things fall into place. You will not be weighed down, anxious or distressed.

You might say, “But Pastor Prince, God has given me this heavy burden. It is weighing heavily on my heart!”

My friend, if the burden is heavy, it is not from God because Jesus said that His burden is light. The devil has probably given you the burden to crush you!

“Oh, Pastor Prince, you are making light of how serious my burden is.”

No, I am not. Jesus did say that His burden is light and His yoke easy. So a life yoked with Him is anxiety- and worry-free.

Beloved, follow His leading and flow with Him, and you will find rest for your soul!

Watch What Jesus Does by Joseph Prince

2010-08-21T22:48:00.000+08:00

Luke 1:37
37“For with God nothing will be impossible.”

You may have heard from friends or seen in Christian books the popular question, “What would Jesus do?” It is a question Christians are taught to ask themselves when faced with a problem.

But when you ask yourself, “What would Jesus do?” in any situation, it is subject to your own interpretation and theology. For example, if you are from a church that doesn’t believe that Jesus heals today, you may think that this is how Jesus would pray for the sick, “O Father, give him patience to endure his sufferings,” and proceed to pray that way for a sick person. So when you try to think of what Jesus would do, you are going back to your flesh!

Maybe the reminder should be, “Watch what Jesus does”. When I preach, I watch what Jesus is doing or leading me to do. If He prompts me to say or do something, I say or do it. I know that I am not in the pulpit to manifest Pastor Prince or his flesh, but to manifest Jesus Christ, with whom nothing is impossible!

One Sunday service, prompted by God, I shared with the congregation that He wanted to restore lost items. The following week, a church member wrote, “Last Sunday, Pastor Prince, you mentioned that the Lord would help us recover lost items. I knew that the word was for me. My diamond bracelet and ring had been missing for weeks… Praise God, when I returned home that day, my maid placed the lost items in my hands. She found them at 10.30 that morning while I was still worshiping in church.”

On another occasion, I was praying for a wheelchair-bound lady when I felt God telling me to pull her up from her wheelchair. Boy, was I glad that before I realized what I was doing, she was standing up on her feet unaided! Now, if I had taken some time to think — “My goodness, what am I doing?” — my thinking could have obstructed my obedience to God’s prompting.

So when you are led to talk to someone, watch what Jesus does. When you pray for your child, watch what Jesus does. When you confess God’s Word into your situation, watch what Jesus does! Keep your eyes on Jesus, with whom nothing is impossible!

Fulfillment

2010-08-21T10:10:00.002+08:00

“I have set the LORD always before me. Because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken.”- Psalm 16:8 NIV

The moment I've been waiting for is almost here. It's true that setting eyes on Jesus makes us focus no matter what distraction comes our way. So it's all worth it (Hebrews 12:1-2). Thank You LOrd!

Every day is receiving day!

2010-08-16T22:43:00.002+08:00

2 Peter 1:3 (Amplified Bible)
3For His divine power has bestowed upon us all things that [are requisite and suited] to life and godliness, through the [[d]full, personal] knowledge of Him Who called us by and to His own glory and excellence (virtue).

Every day is a receiving day of ALL good things from the Lord. I just did today. I was blessed with a comforting hand, a giving hand and a loving heart.

Grace had been given by God and we receive everything He had given us through faith (Ephesians 2:8). My harvest, my reward, my prosperity and healing is not received tomorrow or some hopeful time but TODAY. So today, I receive everything that God had given me - as in ALL things!

Enlarging the container...

2010-08-16T22:42:00.002+08:00

"But the natural man receiveth not the things of the Spirit of God: for they are foolishness unto him: neither can he know them, because they are spiritually discerned" (1 Corinthians 2:14).

The Word of God is spiritual-you must be spiritually enlightened to discern it. Expand your spiritual capacity and understanding by reading and meditating on the Word.

from http://www.creflodollarministries.org/ : Daily Devotionals

What do you see?

2010-08-12T20:55:00.001+08:00

What Do You See? by Joseph Prince

Mark 11:24
24Therefore I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them.

A blind lady was led to a great healing evangelist for prayer. After he had prayed for her, he asked her, “Now, tell me what you see.” She opened her eyes only to be told, “Close your eyes. Tell me what you see.” She opened her eyes again only to be told, “I didn’t say to open your eyes. I asked you what you saw. Close your eyes! Now, tell me what you see.”

This went on for a while, until the lady realized that the evangelist was asking her what she saw on the inside. Did she see herself seeing? When she understood that, she said, “I see myself with sight.” Then, the evangelist told her, “Now, slowly open your eyes.” That moment, she opened her eyes to perfect vision!

When you prayed just now, what did you see inside you? Were you praying for someone’s healing, but seeing that person in a coffin? Were you praying for a financial breakthrough, but seeing the banks pursuing you till you were bankrupt?

You see, you don’t get what you pray for. You get what you believe you receive when you pray. Jesus said, “Therefore I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them.”

Beloved, “whatever things” covers your every need. And believing that you receive them comes before having them. Jesus once told a centurion, “Go your way; and as you have believed, so let it be done for you.” The centurion’s servant was healed that same hour. (Matthew 8:13) The centurion believed that he received his miracle even before he saw it in the natural.

So when you pray, what do you really believe and see on the inside?

“Well, Pastor Prince, I really can’t see it.”

Then don’t pray yet. Change your vision on the inside first. Start seeing yourself with the answer. See yourself healed. See yourself living in the bigger house that you need. See yourself enjoying more than enough. When you can see it and believe it, then pray in faith, and you will have whatever you ask for!

I don't own me, anymore

2010-08-12T14:55:00.003+08:00

1 Corinthians 6:19-20 (New Living Translation)
19 Don’t you realize that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit, who lives in you and was given to you by God? You do not belong to yourself, 20 for God bought you with a high price. So you must honor God with your body.

I had manicure and pedicure yesterday when the one servicing me talks about loosing her sister from kidney failure. I can say that she's still in the grieving process and death is so much real to her. I know how she feels, I felt the same when uncle Ben died and recently, Theresa. It's like there's so much fear of death surrounding me and that life is a scarce thing. A word from the Lord cease that fear..."I love you and we're not finish with our task."

Waking up everyday and facing and choosing daily choices made us occupied with many things in life that we tend to forget we don't own our life anymore. I once remembered when I cope with depression and frustration with eating. From 110 lbs., I went to 140 lbs. It left me weak and I get tired easily. So after reading that verse 2 weeks ago, I then realized to take care of myself. Not that I'm afraid to die or that God would end my life (which He never would until I surrender it), it's because I want to do more in life for His glory. To do so, I need to take care of the channel He have to bless the world and share the gospel to the world - my body. I can't serve God anymore if I'm spirit...I need a body...He needs this instrument to show His glory. By exercising, eating healthy and gracefully handling stress will do. Besides, I enjoy living the good life that Jesus gave me.

I receive Your love for me, Lord Jesus.

Sinking in the depths of grace

2010-08-09T22:56:00.003+08:00

2 Peter 1:2 New Living Translation
2 May God give you more and more grace and peace as you grow in your knowledge of God and Jesus our Lord.

If God's grace is the ocean then I'm the boat sinking into the depths of it. Being aware of God's grace and how I can receive have literally revolutionized my mind. Until now, I'm still savoring every part of it. Being aware of God's grace avoids me to complain, keeps me humble and gives me perfect peace.

Kapag alam mo ang isang bagay ay biyaya ni Lord, hindi mo ito ipagdadamot.

Balance of Grace and Faith

2010-08-09T22:49:00.002+08:00

Ephesians 2:8-9 (Amplified Bible)

8For it is by free grace (God's unmerited favor) that you are saved ([a]delivered from judgment and made partakers of Christ's salvation) through [your] faith. And this [salvation] is not of yourselves [of your own doing, it came not through your own striving], but it is the gift of God;

9Not because of works [not the fulfillment of the Law's demands], lest any man should boast. [It is not the result of what anyone can possibly do, so no one can pride himself in it or take glory to himself.]

I've never experience grace like how I am experiencing right now. Pastor Noel preached about the "Balance of grace and faith" and it literally revolutionized my mind on how God's blessing is available for me, every day - all of it for me, every day.

What impacts me in this teaching was to enlarge my capacity to receive all that God has for me and that I should take care of my faith and not to let it be contaminated by any thing.

Have you taken your love break today?

2010-08-09T22:47:00.001+08:00

Have You Taken Your Love Break Today? by Pastor Joseph Prince
Saturday, July 31, 2010 at 4:45pm

John 15:9
9“As the Father loved Me, I also have loved you; abide in My love.

In your workplace, you probably take coffee breaks, lunch breaks, tea breaks and definitely toilet breaks. Why not do the same in your spiritual life — take time out for breaks, especially love breaks?

What is a love break? It is the time you take to enjoy and feed on the love of Jesus for you. At any time during the day, wherever you are, find a quiet spot and feed on the love of Jesus. Just sit down and talk to Him. Say to Him, “Thank You, Jesus, for loving me. Nothing is going to happen to me that You don’t already know about. Jesus, when I could not save myself, You died for me. You gave up Your life for me. What else will You not do for me!”

Such love breaks are typified in the Old Testament by Aaron the high priest and his sons eating the breast of the animal sacrificed. (Leviticus 7:31) The breast of the animal speaks of the love of Jesus. Today, you are a priest to God. (Revelation 1:6) So spend time feeding on the love of Jesus for you, and see yourself nourished, strengthened and sustained by His love. Jesus is our High Priest today. This means that His food is in loving us. He enjoys loving us and is also “nourished” by His love for us.

But do not forget that the breast was roasted by fire (Leviticus 7:35), which speaks of God’s judgment on Jesus as He hung on the cross because He was carrying our sins. So as you feed on Jesus’ love for you, see Him loving you at the cross. When things around you are not going well, do not allow the devil to say to you, “If God loves you, how come these things are happening to you?” My friend, interpret God’s love for you based on the cross, not on your present circumstances.

During the day, when you are hard at work, when busyness sets in, when problems pile up or when discouragement comes, just stop everything and take a love break with Jesus! Let Jesus love you. Let yourself enjoy being loved by Him. Lean on His bosom, abide in His love and be nourished by His love for you!

Thought of The Day
Be nourished by God’s love for you today!

Note: entry for August 7, 2010

God loves me so much

2010-08-09T22:43:00.004+08:00

Watching this left me crying because of the realization of God's grace.

Note: Entry for August 6, 2010

Constantly sowing and reaping

2010-08-05T23:06:00.002+08:00

"Stop letting people lead you astray from the truth! You might try to turn up your nose at the law of God, but that won't change the law! It remains true that whatever you regularly and habitually sow- regardless of what it is- that is exactly what you will regularly and habitually reap." Galatians 6:9

After reading "Sparkling Gems from the Greeks" by Rick Renner, my mind was suddenly opened. The result of certain rage and anger was due to the unwillingness to sow my seed. The seed need to die so that it can be many. I was hesitant to sow it because of constant rejection but then I realized that nothing can nullify God's law of sowing and reaping. No matter what situation I am, I will constantly reap what I have constantly sow. When I choose to die to myself, then the new life (suppose to be always) takes over.

Jesus loves me, period.

2010-08-05T00:08:00.003+08:00

Romans 5:7-9 (New Living Translation)
7 Now, most people would not be willing to die for an upright person, though someone might perhaps be willing to die for a person who is especially good. 8 But God showed his great love for us by sending Christ to die for us while we were still sinners. 9 And since we have been made right in God’s sight by the blood of Christ, he will certainly save us from God’s condemnation.

Present situation in our lives tempts us to doubt God's love for us. What Jesus did at the cross assures us that we are made rich tru His poverty, that by His wounds we are healed and we will never, never, ever die of a broken heart because He died with it so that we can now live and enjoy life of abundance, to the full till it overflows.

Note: Entry for August 4, 2010

Fixing my eyes on Jesus - Grace made flesh and blood

2010-08-03T14:16:00.005+08:00

2 Corinthians 5:18-19 (Amplified Bible)
18But all things are from God, Who through Jesus Christ reconciled us to Himself [received us into favor, brought us into harmony with Himself] and gave to us the ministry of reconciliation [that by word and deed we might aim to bring others into harmony with Him].
19It was God [personally present] in Christ, reconciling and restoring the world to favor with Himself, not counting up and holding against [men] their trespasses [but cancelling them], and committing to us the message of reconciliation (of the restoration to favor).

It's life-changing and mind-renewing to know God's grace. It is like the sea and I'm like a ship sinking into the depths of His love. Because of His abundant grace and love (yes, LOVE) I have an assurance that He's not out to judge me but blessed me and super exceed every expectation I have for Him. No matter what situation I face, God's grace (yes, JESUS), gives me a "chillax" feeling ... that I will receive all good things from Him, that I will lack no good thing, that I will prosper and be made rich, that I'm rewarded and I be granted my heart's desire!

Thank You Jesus, for singing over me again. Isa pa and marami pa...hehehe

Sing to me a song of Your love

2010-08-02T23:32:00.003+08:00

Zephaniah 3:7 (Amplified Bible)

17The Lord your God is in the midst of you, a Mighty One, a Savior [Who saves]! He will rejoice over you with joy; He will rest [in silent satisfaction] and in His love He will be silent and make no mention [of past sins, or even recall them]; He will exult over you with singing.

I just saw it tonight, that this verse is talking about grace. Just like what it says in Hebrews 8:12. It's amazing how the love of God, His grace can calm down our worries about the future and even the condemnation of the past.

Sing me a to me a new song again, DADDY GOD...like You always have and always did.

By faith

2010-08-01T18:45:00.002+08:00

Hebrews 11:3 The Message

3By faith, we see the world called into existence by God's word, what we see created by what we don't see.

As I travel into a friends house, I spent that time reading "God is not enough. He's too much!" by Jesse Duplantis. A statement that revolutionized my thinking for this specific day was "God doesn't mind you having things as long as you use faith to get them." Amazing! Come to think of it, Galatians 4:7 talks about it, that everything God has belongs to me (his children). In obtaining this promise and every promises in the Word is by faith. I just need to believe I received and stand on it and wait for it to happen.

I believe I receive my car and that thing that I desire ^_^

Uncertainties to Certainties

2010-07-29T13:30:00.004+08:00

2 Corinthians 4:8 (New Century Version)
8 We have troubles all around us, but we are not defeated. We do not know what to do, but we do not give up the hope of living.

2 Corinthians 4:8 (The Message)
We've been surrounded and battered by troubles, but we're not demoralized; we're not sure what to do, but we know that God knows what to do;

Looking at our present situation tempts us into thinking negatively about our future which eventually crushing our spirit and leads us into hopelessness. This hopelessness would lead to giving into negative emotions.

That what happened to me yesterday until this morning. It's like jumping into the sea of fear and uncertainties without any ability to swim. I spent that time crying. I've never felt this down in my life that everything around me is so bleak. How did I get up? Just a decision made me stand up. It started with the Word...I let it ring in my mind and in my heart over and over again. It was then that I realized that even I'm dealing with hopelessness, rejection and hurt, I can still change things through God's Word. Being alive is the fact that things will not end in my present situation. I have a promise that God can turn things around for me and I can always count on Him to do that for me.

How I respond to my situation develops my character. A good character will take me to my destiny - destiny of greatness!

Blessed hands and feet

2010-07-28T11:05:00.002+08:00

Joshua 1:3 (English Standard Version)
3 Every place that the sole of your foot will tread upon I have given to you, just as I promised to Moses.

Deuteronomy 28:8 (New International Version)
8 The LORD will send a blessing on your barns and on everything you put your hand to. The LORD your God will bless you in the land he is giving you.

Deuteronomy 28:8 (New Living Translation)
8 “The Lord will guarantee a blessing on everything you do and will fill your storehouses with grain. The Lord your God will bless you in the land he is giving you.

Deuteronomy 28:8 (New Century Version)
8 The Lord your God will bless you with full barns, and he will bless everything you do. He will bless the land he is giving you.
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Beloved, the life of Jesus is pain-free, disease-free and poverty-free. It attracts the favor and blessings of God. And because you have that life in you, it causes good things to happen to you! - Joseph Prince

These scriptures gives me an assurance that God will guarantee a blessing on me, God will bless everything I put your hand to, God will bless everything I do and God will bless me everywhere I go.

Thank You for Your grace, Lord. I receive Your love today!

Fill me up again

2010-07-28T00:36:00.004+08:00

Psalms 23:5a Message
...You revive my drooping head;
my cup brims with blessing.

I was told that after preaching, it's expected that the adrenaline, even the anointing level subsides. It's like you're super then eventually becomes natural. That is when a speaker would comfort himself/ herself in the Lord. While drinking coffee or eating dark chocolate would be beneficial for others, I find talking to the person I love will be delightful. Above all, talking to God to fill me up again with be the best.

Note: entry for July 27, 2010

happy about it

2010-07-28T00:29:00.002+08:00

Nehemiah 8:10 (The Message)
10 He continued, "Go home and prepare a feast, holiday food and drink; and share it with those who don't have anything: This day is holy to God. Don't feel bad. The joy of God is your strength!"

After a hard day of preaching, I must admit I was physically drained but the fulfillment I felt inside is incomparable. It makes me feel really good to be a blessing to others - really. I'm really happy about it.

Note: This is an entry for July 26, 2010

Awesome Sunday!

2010-07-25T22:29:00.003+08:00

Just came in an hour ago. The service today was awesome! Never thought preaching would be this draining...not because I'm tired but because I was not able to sleep due to excitement the day before. I'll make sure to prepare myself physically next time an opportunity come again. I'm glad a lot of people were blessed by the Word as I am blessed by it.

Today is the same day as with HCM Harvest Cell. I'm not always around every time we're having one but I sure hope next time I'll be around.

After three services, the Music Team had a dinner party in which we all end up buffed and puffed...hehehe. We were all full with food at the same time with laughter. I appreciate Perla for making preparations. We're so blessed to have her in the team.

Now, I'm ready to sleep...can I snore this time? LOL!

Faith purpose

2010-07-24T00:11:00.001+08:00

“But without faith it is impossible to please him…” (Hebrews 11:6).

Too much emphasis has been put on living a life of faith to obtain things, rather than as a life that pleases God. Although your faith is used to obtain God’s promises, its real purpose is to glorify Him. (CDM)

God's timing

2010-07-23T23:50:00.000+08:00

2 Peter 3:9 (King James Version)

9The Lord is not slack concerning his promise, as some men count slackness; but is longsuffering to us-ward, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance.

THANK YOU, LORD JESUS!

The Last Air Bender

2010-07-23T23:42:00.002+08:00

I'm just glad I've watched this in 3-D or else I wouldn't enjoy the movie just like I'm very much engrossed with its cartoon series form.

Care for a book two? Please give some justice to the story, not short cut. Then maybe, I would ask for book 3...hehehe. Then again, I could have listened or at least read reviews before watching it. Hay, naku!

When everything becomes possible...

2010-07-22T21:08:00.004+08:00

Mark 10:27 (Contemporary English Version)
27Jesus looked at them and said, "There are some things that people cannot do, but God can do anything."

When you get a revelation in your heart for ministry or personal life that is overwhelming and you can't see how it will happen... all you have to do is find a scripture, feed your spirit with it, meditate on it and wait on God. You don't need to know how it will happen or when will it happen. All you need to do is get yourself fully persuaded. The "promise" and "persuasion" comes through the Word. The "performance" - you have nothing to do with that!

The principle is that...

...Absolute faith is that you can receive all good things from the Divine Source of everything.

and...

...you receive it through the systematic application of God's Word in your life. "Acting on the Word" without result can be burdensome (this is our training period) while "inspired acting on the Word" is an action based on knowing that you will receive.

Continuing, sticking to it!

2010-07-21T10:13:00.001+08:00

John 8:31-32 (New Century Version)
31 So Jesus said to the Jews who believed in him, "If you continue to obey my teaching, you are truly my followers. 32 Then you will know the truth, and the truth will make you free."

John 8:31-32 (The Message)
31-32Then Jesus turned to the Jews who had claimed to believe in him. "If you stick with this, living out what I tell you, you are my disciples for sure. Then you will experience for yourselves the truth, and the truth will free you."

I receive what i will share on Sunday. God's Word is enough to make things possible. Continuing in God's Word makes things real!

Bear in mind

2010-07-20T11:33:00.000+08:00

Hebrews 12:17 [God's WORD Translation]

14Try to live peacefully with everyone, and try to live holy lives, because if you don’t, you will not see the Lord. 15Make sure that everyone has kindness[a] from God so that bitterness doesn’t take root and grow up to cause trouble that corrupts many of you. 16Make sure that no one commits sexual sin or is as concerned about earthly things as Esau was. He sold his rights as the firstborn son for a single meal. 17You know that afterwards, when he wanted to receive the blessing that the firstborn son was to receive, he was rejected. Even though he begged and cried for the blessing, he couldn’t do anything to change what had happened.

Let it heal

2010-07-20T11:24:00.002+08:00

Hebrews 12:12 - 13 (GOD’S WORD Translation)
12Strengthen your tired arms and weak knees. 13Keep walking along straight paths so that your injured leg won’t get worse. Instead, let it heal.

I have been struggling to forget my emotions and forgive a person I really love. It hurts to know that what I hold dear has been taken for granted for the sake of a guilt-free conscience. It really hurts than I end up crying every time I remember it. But then God's Word cleanses, encourages and above all - heals! This verse today made me focus on the things I need to do to arrive at my destiny. I am very much eager to arrive there and this verse helped me focused. Thank God for His Word I can always hold on.

God, though our circumstances are bad sometimes, remains good - all the time. I have 2 job interview coming up and 1 part time job. Ang galing ni Lord. Thanks be to God who always causes us to triumph in His name!

Unveil

2010-07-18T16:23:00.000+08:00

Jeremiah 29:11 - 12 Message
I know what I'm doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.12"When you call on me, when you come and pray to me, I'll listen. 13-14"When you come looking for me, you'll find me. "Yes, when you get serious about finding me and want it more than anything else, I'll make sure you won't be disappointed." God's Decree. "I'll turn things around for you…You can count on it.

God's plan and destiny for my life is unfolding one by one. Some things I can see clearly now and the others will be the next thing. I realized that it's my desire and passion to be creative. When I'm being creative about songs, dance, papers,designs - even ideas, it just leaves me stirred up inside that I don't care if I'm paid doing it or not . I'm a daydreamer and I love putting those dreams into reality. That's it, I've said! It's finally out - aha!

My passion is for the youth - to see them motivated, encouraged and equipped to go after fulfilling that "seed of highest quality" that God had planted in them when they were born. I see it clearly now.

The message I've shared today at the Winner's Circle Church was for me. Going back to Dr. Creflo Dollar's coaching made me realize those things. Going back to the Word have enlightened me in so many ways. I've discovered how things are when not in pressure of meeting up other's expectation. It's amazing how can a person set free from the cage of limitation. How certain connection with leaders are important and how surrendering certain relationship can make me stress free.

Challenges

2010-07-17T15:10:00.000+08:00

“In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world” (John 16:33).

No one is immune to challenges. Adversity will come, but you don’t have to let it overcome or overwhelm you. Instead of focusing on your situation, focus on the victory you have in Jesus.

- From Creflo Dollar Ministries

My Destiny

2010-07-16T18:16:00.003+08:00

Ephesians 2:10 (Amplified Bible)

10For we are God's [own] handiwork (His workmanship), [a]recreated in Christ Jesus, [born anew] that we may do those good works which God predestined (planned beforehand) for us [taking paths which He prepared ahead of time], that we should walk in them [living the good life which He prearranged and made ready for us to live].

During a fellowship with leaders (Ptr. Bong, Ptr. Noel, Bishop, Ptr. Lito & Ate Sha) made me realized that I am at the right place at the right time. Each believers have their own destiny set for them by God and we just need to discover what is this destiny. I was trying to make my own and eventually left me frustrated. The right word at the right season had set me free - completely from that frustration. God knows how I wanted to go to Singapore and yet He close doors for me. But now I know why. This specific process in my life have made me get it. God had and has always been my source. My education and talents were not able to get me to work in Singapore. But God's grace enabled me to go to South Korea, Guam and Singapore - not to mention places in the Philippines where I have been for the past 2 years since my total realization of God's calling in my life. I knew this before and the Lord needs to take me back to it again. I love where I am, I love what I'm presently doing and above all, I am enjoying every part of it. It's not about comfort zone, it's about connection. [Sige lang, Lord. Just have Your way with me].

I'm blessed not because I'm good but because GOD IS GOOD - all the time, grabeh!

What made me think...

2010-07-15T16:34:00.005+08:00

Gen. 15:4 Then the word of the LORD came to him: "This man will not be your heir, but a son coming from your own body will be your heir." Never settle for a man made solution to a God given promise! - Mike Cowart

I received my salvation by grace - even my healing. Why then would I think that I will earn my prosperity? God gave me a promise of prosperity this year. I just need to trust Him and look unto Him to promote, prosper and multiply me. Pastor Mike Cowart is right when he said, "never settle for a man-made solution to a God-given promise!"

Law demands, Grace supplies

2010-07-15T00:40:00.003+08:00

Hebrews 12:1-3 NLT
1 Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a huge crowd of witnesses to the life of faith, let us strip off every weight that slows us down, especially the sin that so easily trips us up. And let us run with endurance the race God has set before us. 2 We do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects our faith.[a] Because of the joy[b] awaiting him, he endured the cross, disregarding its shame. Now he is seated in the place of honor beside God’s throne. 3 Think of all the hostility he endured from sinful people;[c] then you won’t become weary and give up. 4 After all, you have not yet given your lives in your struggle against sin.

It's no use of always looking at myself. My abilities and responsibilities will always fall short of supply. Frustration is the usual end result. But looking to Jesus, at what He did at the cross for me, at the abundance of His grace and His love for me (that stretched forth His arms and says, "it is finished") - that will be enough...that even when the enemy will accuse me, the Father will always look at what Jesus did for me. Salamat Lord, I couldn't do this without You.

Reminding myself

2010-07-13T12:57:00.003+08:00

1 Corinthians 15:57 (Amplified Bible)

57But thanks be to God, Who gives us the victory [making us conquerors] through our Lord Jesus Christ.

The enemy will start distracting the moment we wake up in the morning. He will suggest thoughts of defeat, anger, bitterness and fear. If we wouldn't be aware of it, we'll find ourselves meditating on words about it and even ending up processing decisions in our mind that will be based on negative things. So we need to remind ourselves everyday of who we are in Christ. Run the race with endurance by looking at what Jesus did at the cross for us (Hebrews 12:1-2). The cross will always remind us of the abundance we have in Jesus. His perfect love cast out all fears (1 John 4:18).

Delighting

2010-07-12T23:55:00.003+08:00

Psalms 37:3-6 (NCV)

3 Trust the Lord and do good.
Live in the land and feed on truth.
4 Enjoy serving the Lord,
and he will give you what you want.
5 Depend on the Lord;
trust him, and he will take care of you.
6 Then your goodness will shine like the sun,
and your fairness like the noonday sun.

There's so much treasure in this passage and I'll keep on reading for it to be revealed to me. For the mean time, I have enjoyed the day''s activities. I have fun with our V12 Meeting today and love sharing with the SSL Pastors (single and still looking). All the while, I thought it's because of my accomplishments that makes me feel good about the day but eventually, I've realized that it's my attitude that makes my day fulfilling.

I receive my rest today

2010-07-06T11:18:00.003+08:00

Hebrews 4:9 "There remains therefore a rest for the people of God."

I came to the end of myself, to the end of looking and expecting promises from other people. For the past weeks, it had left me disappointed, frustrated and helpless. This article helped me out of it. I receive my rest today, I receive the promises given to me today, I receive my breakthrough today.

There's always benefit in looking at the cross - and not in our situations nor with people. That's why Hebrews 12:1-2 talks about running the race with endurance by looking unto Jesus. Here's looking at Him...

Lord, thank you for making me rest and lie down in green pastures - just like You've always promised.

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Rest And Receive Your Miracle
by Joseph Prince

Hebrews 4:9
There remains therefore a rest for the people of God.

In the healing of the paralyzed man at the pool of Bethesda (John 5:1–16), Jesus knew that for 38 years, the man had been flat on his back, unable to do anything for himself or others, no matter how hard he struggled.

In the case of the woman oppressed with a spirit of infirmity (Luke 13:10–13), Jesus knew that the woman had been bowed over for 18 years. And in that condition, she saw very little that was beautiful in life, only thedusty ground, dirty sandals and bruised feet.

What about the man with a withered hand? (Luke 6:6–10) Jesus knew from His carpenter days how a useless hand could have easily given the man a very poor sense of self-worth.

I believe that all three of them must have struggled for so long to get back on their feet, to try to lift themselves up, to attempt to do something about their situations, only to be disappointed each time they failed. In fact, they got so frustrated with striving to get better that by the time they met Jesus, they had probably given up trying to change their situations.

It was then that Jesus came and extended His offer to turn their situations around. And when they embraced His offer, they received the miracles that they had sought for so long.

You too may have been struggling to get back on your feet, or to lift yourself out of the problem that has sorely weighed you down. You have attempted to do whatever you could, hoping that it would amount to something, but you have been frustrated time and again. My friend, God wants you to cease from all your struggling and accept the offer He extends to turn your situation around.

It is no coincidence that all three of them received their miracles on the Sabbath, the day of rest for the Jews. God’s Word says, “There remains therefore a rest for the people of God.” The day you cease from your own laboring and striving, and rest in the finished work of Christ, is the day you receive your miracle.

Jesus has done all the work. Whatever you need has been provided for at the cross. So just be at rest and receive your miracle!

Thought of The Day
God wants you to cease from all your struggling and accept the offer He extends to turn your situation around.

Your concern is God's concern

2010-06-29T13:19:00.004+08:00

The LORD will accomplish what concerns me;
Your lovingkindness, O LORD, is everlasting;
Do not forsake the works of Your hands.
Psalms 138:8 NASB

Job application can be a little wearing specially when most of them have rejected you. If it's not with the Word situations like this could get the best out of people. But the Psalmist knows one thing for sure that God will finish every work that He began in us (Philippians 1:6). His accomplished work at the cross made all things possible and available for us. Yes, the provision the money for us to pay the bills, the complete Healing for our bodies, the restoration of our relationship, the favor with people and more. This includes the fulfillment of life that Jesus came to give us...a life in abundance to the full until it overflows (John 10:10b). We have an assurance because He love us - unconditionally. His love has nothing to do with what you have done or feel. Every promises of God is yours to take and stand to believe that you have received. What concerns you today? Give it to the Lord. Commit your ways to Him, trust in Him and He will accomplish this. Why? Because He loves you...period.

Natatanging Kaibigan

2010-06-24T10:51:00.003+08:00

Sa natatanging kaibigan ko...salamat ...

sa pagmamahal mong tunay na talagang angat sa iba...
sa walang sawa mong suporta sa katuparan ng mga pangarap ko...
sa pakikinig sa kakulitan ko at mga hinaing ko.

Salamat ha...

birthday ko na...

2010-06-24T10:41:00.003+08:00

Just woke up at 930am but spent an hour replying to greetings in FB and my cp. The past year have been a blessed year.

I'm very much blessed with leaders who have added value in my life through sharing God's Word. I'm blessed with pupils who have challenged me to stretch my faith. I'm blessed with friends who have been with me to see those promises fulfilled and I'm blessed with a family who planted the Word in my heart. And still and always will, blessed by a God who unconditionally love me ^_^ Saan ka pa? LOVE YOU JESUS!

So, I established this is my heart as I went into another transition in my life...though the past one day had almost been unbearable and painful for me, I made a decision (at tinaga ko na sa bato) that God is a Rewarder of the diligent seeker and Giver of heart's desires to those delighter (- if there is such word). No matter what the world says, I will have whatever God says I will have. I will live every moment of my life this year and the next years believing that.

grief

2010-06-23T02:28:00.002+08:00

i feel sad...i feel really sad. this must have been the saddest year, the saddest day of my life.

no accidents

2010-06-17T02:48:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, God has a funny way of doing things but most of the time His ways, funny or serious, are better.

I believe that there are no accidents in life. Even the accidents on the road are not really accidents. We may not intentionally want it to happen but it's not an accident since it started with making a wrong move or decision. We may say it's untimely but it never was. Deuteronomy 30:19 talks about our choice between life and death, curse and blessing. So there's no accident.

Even our birth is not an accident. Just think about the details of fertilization of an egg cell. You'll be blown away! It just tells us that though our parents may not have planned us, God choose us to create us with a plan to prosper in His mind.

So then ,it's not an accident that a door closes and a new one opened. When to go inside? That's another entry...hehehe

God to the rescue

2010-06-11T22:11:00.004+08:00

I was very anxious today about leaving. I collected all the information that I need to work in Singapore and it seems that fear and anxiousness are trying to envelope me. So I decided to ride the bike for a while and go the vulcanizing shop to have the tires fixed. When I'm about to leave, the tire literally popped so it has to be repaired. Unfortunately, I have no money for the repair. I made a call of distress but nobody answered. In fact, I was being shouted at the phone by Loida (very untimely) for asking the kids to bring my wallet with me. She didn't know that I already had a trike to fetch them. But God's favor was upon me that the owner of the shop just allowed me to pay the next day.
I proved some things...
- in emergencies, I know who are the people I can NEVER call and I can NEVER depend on.
- I seem to be hesitant to receive God's favor through the owner of the shop.
- that God will always see me through in every circumstances.

God is breaking something in me and what happened tonight, I believe it is a success. After reading the passage in Genesis 39, I told myself that I really have to go. I will never know the fulfillment of the TRUTH unless I'll go out there. From where I'm standing, it looks like a jungle. But from where God is, it is a piece of cake. Joseph prospered because God was with him. God is not just with me, He's in me. I believe that this is it. If I want big things to happen, I need to think big. Now, I'm at the conception of my dream. Here I come!

Note to self: Reading the Bible removes fear and will constantly build faith. Instead of turning to what you think or feel, turn to the WORD.

sakto!

2010-06-11T13:46:00.004+08:00

I'm going to Singapore next month and have the adventure of my life(mildz, please don't tell anyone). I must admit I was a little hesitant at first. I guess leaving the comfort zone overwhelms me sincIe I have been living in it for almost 33 years. It's true, it's making my mind reason out things - literally confusing me with a lot of questions and what ifs. I believe going there is God-driven for reason that He provided the money I will be spending, the people I will have connection to (and to be mentored by) and doors have been opening. An agency is the only one who closed a door for me. I place before my eyes God and how He worked things out in the life of Joseph the dreamer. That is exactly what's happening to me. I don't want to go to details but it hurts and yet if Joseph can, then I can because we have the same God who is faithful and true. So let me end with excerpts from Christine Caine's "A Life Unleashed" on enlarge.

Where we are and who we are today is the sum total of the choices we've made to this point. If we want to be somewhere different i one year, fiver years, or ten years, we need to be willing to implement emotional, spiritual, intellectual, and physical changes in our lives. The fact is, without change, nothing changes.

We need to be committed to enlarging our personal capacity (even when it's uncomfortable). We need to refused to be satisfied with our latest accomplishments, as what we've accomplished is no longer our potential because it has been actualized. There's always potential within us waiting to be tapped.

God equipped us with the ability to increase in our capacity to see the dreams achieved. To successfully birth our dreams we must be committed to growing where we need to go. (sakto!)

I see grace

2010-06-09T03:25:00.003+08:00

I have been working too much ... on my own when I should remember that promotion, increase and prosperity comes from the Lord not from the works of my hands but by His grace. I see grace today and thankful I did. I'm able to find rest and thank God, I will sleep tonight soundly...(maybe with snoring on the side) hehehe.

I am the sheep, the Lord is my Shepherd. I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures, He leads me besides still waters.

The Word is literally exploding in my heart tonight because I see grace. Salamat Lord ha, salamat talaga.

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Matthew 6:33 amp
33But seek ([z]aim at and strive after) first of all His kingdom and His righteousness ([aa]His way of doing and being right), and then all these things [ab]taken together will be given you besides.

"His righteousness" talks about what Jesus did at the cross. Hebrews 12:2 talks about fixing my eyes on Jesus which then reminds me of how Abraham (Romans 4:21)without unwavering received what was promised to Him.

Note to self: Look at the cross, the significance of the cross...His nail-pierced hands, crown of thorns... He endured it, in exchange for what Abigail? So that everything your hand touches will be blessed and your head, yes your head, don't have to worry. At last, restful night, sound sleeping is yours - every night. Focus, Abigail...look at what Jesus did at the cross.

Eternal

2010-06-07T11:55:00.003+08:00

Our eyes can be easily blurred by what we actually and presently see in our situations and circumstances. We fail to remember that we have a promise, we have God's Word to hold on to because it is only the one thing that has a firm foundation.

I feel so beaten down before I sleep last night. In fact, I can't sleep aside from the headache and stomach ache, my mind is in turmoil on what should I believe. After much struggle to calm myself and my mind, I was able to sleep. When I woke up this morning, God's Word is so clear to me. He said, "you're struck down but not destroyed." I immediately opened my laptop and look up the passage. My heart was appeased by what God has to say to me in 2 Corinthians 4. After reading the chapter, I end up crying and asking God for forgiveness for fixing my eyes on what I see and mopping around like a defeated individual which I'm never am and never will be. I am destined for greatness and I'm born an overcomer! That settles everything, I did what I could and now it's God's turn. Honestly, what I did never put me in anything or near success. But standing on God's Word put me way, way far than I could ever imagine. When I went out of my room, it's God's Word everywhere in the house speaking to me...like in Romans 4:21;8:32;9:16 , 2 Chronicles 16:9a and Revelations 21:6. Need I say more when God said, "It is done!"

Salamat, Lord, salamat talaga!

2 Corinthians 4 (amp)

1THEREFORE, SINCE we do hold and engage in this ministry by the mercy of God [granting us favor, benefits, opportunities, and especially salvation], we do not get discouraged (spiritless and despondent with fear) or become faint with weariness and exhaustion.
2We have renounced disgraceful ways (secret thoughts, feelings, desires and underhandedness, the methods and arts that men hide through shame); we refuse to deal craftily (to practice trickery and cunning) or to adulterate or handle dishonestly the Word of God, but we state the truth openly (clearly and candidly). And so we commend ourselves in the sight and presence of God to every man's conscience.

3But even if our Gospel (the glad tidings) also be hidden (obscured and covered up with a veil that hinders the knowledge of God), it is hidden [only] to those who are perishing and obscured [only] to those who are spiritually dying and veiled [only] to those who are lost.

4For the god of this world has blinded the unbelievers' minds [that they should not discern the truth], preventing them from seeing the illuminating light of the Gospel of the glory of Christ (the Messiah), Who is the Image and Likeness of God.

5For what we preach is not ourselves but Jesus Christ as Lord, and ourselves [merely] as your servants (slaves) for Jesus' sake.

6For God Who said, Let light shine out of darkness, has shone in our hearts so as [to beam forth] the Light for the illumination of the knowledge of the majesty and glory of God [as it is manifest in the Person and is revealed] in the face of Jesus Christ (the Messiah).(A)

7However, we possess this precious treasure [the divine Light of the Gospel] in [frail, human] vessels of earth, that the grandeur and exceeding greatness of the power may be shown to be from God and not from ourselves.

8We are hedged in (pressed) on every side [troubled and oppressed in every way], but not cramped or crushed; we suffer embarrassments and are perplexed and unable to find a way out, but not driven to despair;

9We are pursued (persecuted and hard driven), but not deserted [to stand alone]; we are struck down to the ground, but never struck out and destroyed;

10Always carrying about in the body the liability and exposure to the same putting to death that the Lord Jesus suffered, so that the [[a]resurrection] life of Jesus also may be shown forth by and in our bodies.

11For we who live are constantly [experiencing] being handed over to death for Jesus' sake, that the [[b]resurrection] life of Jesus also may be evidenced through our flesh which is liable to death.

12Thus death is actively at work in us, but [it is in order that [c]our] life [may be actively at work] in you.

13Yet we have the same spirit of faith as he had who wrote, I have believed, and therefore have I spoken. We too believe, and therefore we speak,(B)

14Assured that He Who raised up the Lord Jesus will raise us up also with Jesus and bring us [along] with you into His presence.

15For all [these] things are [taking place] for your sake, so that the more grace (divine favor and spiritual blessing) extends to more and more people and multiplies through the many, the more thanksgiving may increase [and redound] to the glory of God.

16Therefore we do not become discouraged (utterly spiritless, exhausted, and wearied out through fear). Though our outer man is [progressively] decaying and wasting away, yet our inner self is being [progressively] renewed day after day.

17For our light, momentary affliction (this slight distress of the passing hour) is ever more and more abundantly preparing and producing and achieving for us an everlasting weight of glory [beyond all measure, excessively surpassing all comparisons and all calculations, a vast and transcendent glory and blessedness never to cease!],

18Since we consider and look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen; for the things that are visible are temporal (brief and fleeting), but the things that are invisible are deathless and everlasting.

time

2010-06-07T02:21:00.003+08:00

when all clock starts to run amok, mine stood still.
in that stillness, i find no sleep, no peace, no wall to lean on.
i am on my both feet, standing, still.
when every boat's sailing, every car running...
i'm left motionless, in silence, i am still.

Romans 4:21

2010-06-04T15:52:00.002+08:00

I made my decision...and this is it.

I'm fully convinced that God is able to do what He has promised.

I'm destined for greatness!

2010-06-04T13:10:00.002+08:00

I have been sleepless since I received the answer from my agency that I was turned down by MOM because they don't recognized my school. I've waited for a month and a half and it was just yesterday when they said I did not passed. I was in panic. My mind started to make a list about things I need to do...I came to a point of desperation but then I told myself to stop. Yes, I stopped. I don't have to go, you know. However, I recall my purpose of going then I said to myself, I have to go.

Should I let a single "no" squashed my dreams and abort the unleashing of God's promises to me? God gave me His Word. I have a Word from the Lord. There was a temptation to just forget about it because of the pressure, fears and doubts. Yet, should I retreat when I'm almost there? Should I take "no" for an answer? I will not.

When He already said it, then it's done and accomplished. It is finished then. Whatever people may say or how are things look like in the present, I know this for sure ... God created me for so much more. No words like "no" can stop that.

For now...I'll listen to the Holy Spirit - "be still." God gave me another Word two days ago while reading "A life Unleashed" by Christine Caine. He said, "You did your part, now it's My turn." It was so clear, even when I'm reading and riding on a jeep His Word sounds really loud in my ears that I'd write it down.

Note to self: Be open to change - get used of doing things God's way. Don't let your situation get you earth-bound. Come up higher through prayer.

Umuulan

2010-06-03T12:36:00.003+08:00

Ganito kalakas ang buhos ng ulan nung tayo ay nagpapatintero kahapon. Bawat patak ay tila walang hanggang kasiyahan. Taimtim akong nanalangin na sana'y lagi tayong ganito kasaya at sana'y hindi na matapos ang sandaling ito. Wala nang ibang hihilingan pa sa Diyos kundi maging kalaro ka habang nabubuhay.

(Rainy days are here - love it!)

Just the thing I need

2010-06-02T22:21:00.001+08:00

I was writing my latest entry when I read this article through Facebook. That settles it then, God's Word to me. It is finished! Thank You, Lord! Really - thank You!

See The Work Accomplished
by Joseph Prince
Today at 7:59pm

John 19:30
30 So when Jesus had received the sour wine, He said, “It is finished!” And bowing His head, He gave up His spirit.

What do you see when it comes to healing for your sick body, restoration for your failing marriage or breakthroughs for your financial woes? Do you see a finished work or a work that is yet to be completed?

God wants you to know that what you desperately need Him to do for you has already been done! Jesus’ finished work at the cross so satisfied the Father’s heart that from heaven’s throne came the pronouncement, “It is done!” (Revelation 16:17) in response to Jesus’ cry, “It is finished!” on earth. So God wants you to have this revelation that whatever you need Him to do for you has already been done because Jesus has accomplished it all for you.

If you need healing, know that your healing has been accomplished. If you need restoration for your marriage, know that your restoration has been accomplished. You are not going to die from any lack — you have been abundantly supplied. All these things have been accomplished, not by you, but by Christ alone!

My friend, if you are bothered by a pain in your body, God wants you to see your healing finished or accomplished for you by His Son’s death on the cross. If it is a loss or debt you face, or a certain sin that you are struggling with, believe that your provision, restoration and deliverance have been accomplished for you.

Don’t worry about what you see or feel, or the presence of contradicting reports. These are lying symptoms and though they may seem very real, they are temporal and not the truth. God’s Word is the truth and it will remain because it is eternal. And when you believe that only what God’s Word says about your situation is the truth, all the lying symptoms will eventually have to line up with His Word.

God the Son says, “It is finished!”

God the Father says, “It is done!”

What do you say?

Thought of The Day:
Whatever you need God to do for you has been done because Jesus has accomplished it all for you at the cross.

Word Power

2010-06-02T21:51:00.004+08:00

It's funny how I'd insist what I want when I already have a Word from the Lord. I guess waiting for the answer somehow excites me so much that I get impatient. My application in Singapore is still in process. Though Pre-school teacher is in high demand nowadays (Singapore), I don't know what's keeping my agent from calling. Anyways, I'm confident because I have a Word from the Lord. It was Him who approved my work in Singapore when He said, "leave your Father's house...to the land which I will show you." Funny, yeah, I know. Recently, I've been seeking Him about whether I'll go or not. God, knowing my impatience, replied to me and said, (through Ptra. Cess)... "tarry in Jerusalem for a little while." She was preaching and it hit me like a lightning. And so I did. However, I can't keep from asking Him when. So He did answer through Ptr. Rodel during an EGR this May 21-22, 2010. He's already finished with his preaching when he made a last statement and said, "meron sa inyo dito na lilipad sa abroad bago matapos ang buwan ng June." I know that very instant that those words were for me. To zeal it, Ptr. Vic stood up (to pray for the meal) and said, "Meron sa church namin last year na tinanggap ang salitang iyon at ngayon isang taon na ang lumilipas at susunduin na siya pabalik sa airport." I guess that zeals it.
It has been a week and impatience and panic seems to creep into me. Even so, I never stop declaring that I will have a high-salary job in Singapore, that I will leave for Singapore before I turn 33, that I will be very rich because this year is my "pay day" year, the year of jubilee and favor of the Lord for me. I will be extremely blessed and because of that, a lot of people will be blessed through me...in Jesus' name!

Logging on the internet is somehow tempting to apply to another country and agency. But then again, while reading the book that Ptr. NES gave me (A life unleashed by Christine Caine), God spoke so clearly to me and said, "You have done your part, now it's MY turn." I sighed and answered, "Ok then, Lord... it's Your turn."

As

2010-05-20T12:34:00.001+08:00

As
Nichole Nordeman / This Mystery

As around the sun the earth knows she's revolving
And the rosebuds know to bloom in early May
Just as hate know love's the cure
You can rest your mind assured that
I'll be loving you always

As now can't reveal the mystery of tomorrow
But in passing we'll grow older everyday
Just as all that's born is new
You know what I say is true
That I'll be loving you always

Until the rainbow burns the stars out of the sky, always
Until the ocean covers every mountain high, always
Until the dolphin flies and parrots live at sea, always
Until we dream of life and life becomes a dream

Did you know that true love asks for nothing
And acceptance is the way we pay?
Did you know that life has given love a guarantee
To last through forever and another day?

just as time knew to move on since the beginning
And the Seasons know exactly when to change
just as kindness knows no shame
know through all your joy and pain
that i'll be loving you always

Until the day is night and night becomes the day, Always
Until the trees and seas just up and fly away, Always
Until the day that 8x8x8 is 4, always
Untill the day that is the day that are no more

As today I know I'm living, but tomorrow
Could make me the past, but that I mustn't fear
For I know deep in my mind
The love of me I left behind
'Cause I'll be loving you always

We all know sometimes lifes hates and troubles
Can make you wish you were born in another time and space
But you can bet you life times that and twice its double
That god knew right where he wanted you to be placed... always!

Lost

2010-04-18T00:23:00.004+08:00

Maria Theresa Marcelo
1987-2010

i am mourning again for another lost...a friend and a student of mine passed away last Tuesday. it was heart-wrenching because she went into a comma and as much as i wanted to visit her during that time, I don't know which hospital she's in. she gave up after three days, the doctor said it was heat stroke and her case was severe, hopeless. i believe for a miracle to happen but she gave up after an hour.

i will miss her, i wish i could have told her or at least have seen her to tell her. she's too young to die. who knows that six years after i took her picture, she will die? i don't have the strength to look at her inside the coffin. i want to remember her alive, eating with me, laughing with me, crying with me, praying with me - even dreaming with me. i will remember her that way.

one thing i learn is to be unafraid to face challenges so i could reach my maximum potential. i plan to live more than 65 years old not just for myself but also for God to accomplish all that He created me to be, for my husband whom I plan to share my life with, for my baby girl and baby boy whom I will teach the Word of God and music, to my family and friends who are making me their strength as I have made them mine and to the Church who have been a blessing to me and I want to be a blessing to them. i will mourn until today but tomorrow, I will live for God and for these people who are expecting me to live for them.

as the school year end

2010-03-05T14:45:00.002+08:00

the school's almost finished and even i have a lot of deadlines to make, i'm happy. i must admit though that somehow i'd miss teaching preschoool here in the philippines (yeah, right!) well, i'm in the process of working out my papers in a job abroad. thinking about it made me miss a lot of people already. i just console myself that going out will be for my own benefit. i'm thinking about four years away from family, friends and philippines. nah, i'm just a little nostalgic and dramatic...hahaha. i'll just make the most out of every time i have here... naks, para namang ;D

heart-softening

2010-01-13T12:15:00.002+08:00

i'm by myself again in sm... not because i have pressure or i'm feeling emo. i need to work out some papers so i could complete my applications for work abroad. i just ate my lunch and one of my pupils appeared online. to cut the long story short, she reported what her classmates (my class) did when i was away. it's just funny cause i missed them. i remember yesterday when we were playing during their break and one of the girls removed her headband and asked me to wear it. and when i did, the girls giggled and it just tickles me inside to know they're enjoying our time together. so i made a big smile and did the "peace" fingers on my cheek. one of my pupils said these words, "yan, ganyan teacher. gustung-gusto ko na nakangiti ka, gumaganda ka." she added, "gusto kong masaya ka palagi." i was so touched that i turn my back because tears are about to fall. i was so touched how my pupil, even as young as 6yrs old would be happy for other's happiness. galing noh?! gift talaga sila sa akin ni Lord. I was thinking of giving more patience for them. promise ^_^

enjoying my self

2010-01-13T12:03:00.002+08:00

who says being by yourself is not fun? i think our mind has been set that by by yourself when you go to the mall is lonely. i thought it was until one day, i went to the mall alone. my reason is that i need to take a time out. so what i did was brought my net book with me and sit on a wi-fi hotspot in sm and surf. we have connection at home but i was thinking of a different environment. when i got hungry, i went to "cabalen" and ordered an eat-all-you-can merienda and drink for 166 pesos only. it was awkward at first but i think it's all in the mindset. to remove my awkwardness, i opened my computer and watch g-force movie (you know, the guinea pigs heroes)and feasted on dinuguan and puto. i tasked sampelot a bit and palabok with kutsinta - that's it na, solve na. i was so buffed that i went around window shopping like i have 100,000 pesos in my pocket and tried every shoes and dresses i liked. when i don't feel buffed anymore, i sat down at the food court and surf again. it was all worth it and i had fun. i was relieved from pressure at the same time, i was able to think and decide on some solutions i need to do for a specific problem. i really had fun. but wait, don't get me wrong. i'm not implying that being alone is good but i'm saying that a person don't have to feel lonely or alone. i think it's a matter of setting your mind that you can have fun and be happy even by yourself.

i was by myself alright, but the thing is i'm never alone. i have a God who always go with me everywhere that i go. haayyy, salamat na lang!

my value

2009-12-05T23:41:00.002+08:00

i have been feeling so low today and called a friend to be comforted but it failed. i cried more and felt more lonely. little did i know that comfort - like how i wanted to and always been - would only come from God. the Lord has ministered to me through this article from : http://kong-hee.blogspot.com/

Poetry In Motion - Rev. Dr. A.R. Bernard

Your life is an ongoing poem written by the hands of God... unique, beautiful and a testament of His infinite greatness. Recognize the vaue of your life in Christ Jesus and fully embrace all that he has called you to be!

In Mark 4, Jesus taught the parable of the sower, which illustrates four different types of soil in reference to the four heart conditions of man. Subsequently, His disciples asked Him to explain it and Jesus said to them, “Do you not understand this parable? How then will you understand all the parables?” From here, we can see that this particular parable is critical because it sets our minds to understand the parabolic form of God’s teaching and communication towards us.After the parable was explained, Jesus said to His disciples, “Is a lamp brought to be put under a basket or under a bed? Is it not to be set on a lampstand? For there is nothing hidden which will not be revealed, nor has anything been kept secret but that it should come to light. If anyone has ears to hear, let him hear ” (Mark 4:21-23).

Next, He gave them a very critical instruction: “Take heed what you hear” (v. 24). In another translation, it reads, “Take care how you listen.” So the important thing is not just the content of what you are listening to, it is also how you are processing the information that is given to you.
He went on to say, “With the same measure you use, it will be measured to you; and to you who hear, more will be given.” What was He talking about? Well, a measure is simply a value. Basically, Jesus was saying whatever value you place on what you hear will determine its power, influence and impact on your life.

Now this explains how we can have thousands of people come to a service, sit next to one another, listen to the Word of God together and have the Word evidently influence and impact one person, while not work at all in the life of another that may be sitting right beside him.
It all depends on the value we place on what we hear.

A WORD THAT PROFITS

The Word of God is powerful. His Word is like a seed that can come into our lives, germinate and produce a great harvest. But the Word will not work in our lives if we do not place a proper value on that Word.

The book of Hebrews says that the word that was given to Israel did not profit them because it was not mixed with faith. There must be the giving of the Word, but equally important is your response to the Word. Do not think that just because you come and sit in an atmosphere that is charged with the presence of God and where the Word is powerfully delivered, that all of a sudden your life is going to be changed magically. No! It all depends on how you respond to what you are hearing.

Whatever gets your attention gets you. Every time we hear something, we put it on a mental scale and give it a value. On a scale of one to ten, if we give only a “one” to a particular message, it will have very little influence on our lives. If the value given is a “ten,” the influence will be significantly larger.

That happens even in interpersonal communication. If a total stranger calls you a name that is out of character, you may get a little bothered or insulted by it, but the effect on you would be minimal. However, if someone you love and trust passes a derogatory remark about you, it hurts much more. Why? Because the relationship that exists between you and that person increases the value of his word.

PLACING VALUE ON WHO YOU ARE

The need for resolution of the identity crisis is common to all human beings. We all struggle to determine “Who am I?” And along with that we ask, “Why am I here?”, “What is my purpose?” and “How do I make sense of all that is happening around me?”
The first question is critical because if you do not resolve it, you cannot accurately understand how to resolve all the other questions that follow.

There are people who do extreme things trying to discover who they are. We have a barrage of influences coming from television, celebrities, movies and many other places that constantly compete for our attention. Our young people are exposed to these images and if they do not clearly know who they are, they will keep “switching identities” in emulation of these influences.
Discovering our identity is a tough challenge and everybody goes through it. We have people in jail for doing crazy things because they are trying to discover who they are. Not only individually but whole corporations, churches, large entities and groupings of people go through the process of trying to discover “Who am I?”

Why is an accurate knowledge of your God-given identity such an important thing? Because out of your identity comes your sense of value and self-worth. Low self-esteem exists when you do not value who you are. And if you do not value who you are, you tend to want to be someone else.

The Bible says that all things were created by Him and for Him. So if you were created for Him, then you can only understand your unique purpose and your sense of worth and value when you are in association with Him. Apart from God, you cannot fully understand and appreciate your value or your purpose in life. So if we are just trying to use our talents and abilities to make money and satisfy ourselves, we will never be truly fulfilled. There is a hole in your life that only God can fill. The devil will offer you drugs, power, money, prestige, fame and everything else to try to fill that hole, but the only one who can satisfy that need is God.The devil often comes to attack your self-esteem. Why? To reduce your value in your own mind. You may be of priceless value in the kingdom of God, but if you don ’t know your true value, you will end up wasting your life away instead.

Do you know how many people cheapen this wonderful image of God, diminish its value, and depreciate it? When you don ’t value something, you won’t do anything productive with it. You won’t do anything with your life and future if you don’t value it. But the truth remains that you are valuable to God. You are His poem—the expression of His glory. He has gifted you uniquely, wired you and designed you to present you as a beautiful creation to be appreciated by the world.

Don’t let anyone rob you of your value to God. Don’t let anyone depreciate you and diminish the importance of your life to human society. The self-worth that you discover in Him is the firm foundation upon which you build your life. Your greatest value in life is your value to God!
You can know for a fact that people will never value you the way God does. Why? This is because the value that people place on you tends to be emotionally driven. If they are happy with you, you are wonderful and you are of great value to them. However, if they are upset with you, your value will change; it will drop. So it is important not to make the mistake of trying to draw our self-esteem and sense of value from other people. The end result would only be hurt and disappointment. It is important and wonderful for us to encourage and to give value to one another. But the reality is that the only One that can give you a consistent sense of worth and value is God.

as of today

2009-11-28T23:31:00.003+08:00

life has been a roller coaster but thank God, it is not so in Jesus. I have received a lot of blessings within this week and the other week. first was I had a spiritual breakthrough of going another level as a minister, a professional and as a person. i was gladened by the fact that i passed the LET. I am more than glad, however, i was not ab le to rejoice about it because my rejoicing would be a reminder of other's failure. but then i prayed by myself and there i expresssall my emotions and gratitude to the Lord. i am humbled at the same time, gratefulness has been unceasing in my heart. second, new relationships in my life has brought me to different places. since G12, i am connected to transformed, increase and growth-minded, and strong leaders and believers. this means that even my outlook in life has been inspired and well because of their encouragement. i'm able to get a "netbook" two tuesdays ago. Lastly, I found how to focus. writing everything down and accomplishing it for the day has helped me to disciplined and goal oriented. thank God!